The First Goetheanum
by
Rudolf Steiner
Volume Three, Lesson Six
(recapitulation)
Dornach, September 17, 1924
Lessons for members of the Free School for Spiritual Science,
from stenographic notes in German unrevised by the author.
Translation: Frank Thomas Smith
y dear sisters and brothers,
Once again, I must say that the introduction about the
character and the responsibilities connected with the School
cannot be repeated for the new arrivals each time. Therefore, I
must request that those of you who were already here and have
the mantras inform the new members concerning the contents of
the introduction.
Today we will once again begin with the words which contain the
fundamental exhortation to the human being, which resound to
him from all the kingdoms of nature and from all the spiritual
hierarchies, if he has the necessary sensibility, to seek his
own being, and also exhort him to recognize, through his own
being, the world in its true spiritual nature. They resound
from all that interweaves and lives in the earthly depths, in
water and air, in warmth and light, from what lives in the
mountains and springs, in rocks, in the plants and animals, in
the physical human form, in human souls, in human spirits, what
lives in the residents of the stars, in the spiritual
hierarchies — it resounds thus:
O man, know thyself!
So resounds the Cosmic-Word.
You hear it strong in soul,
You feel it firm in spirit.
Who speaks with such cosmic might?
Who speaks with such depth of heart?
Does it work through distant radiant space
Into your senses' sense of being?
Does it ring through weaving waves of time
Into your life's evolving stream?
It's you yourself who,
In feeling space, in experiencing time,
The Word create, feeling foreign
In space's soulless void,
Because you lose the force of thought
In time's destroying flow.
My
dear sisters and brothers, the description of the spiritual
path which leads from the sunny, light-filled world in which we
live on earth appears on the other side of the yawning abyss of
being at first as a gloomy, night-cloaked darkness. The path
which leads us to where we become aware that, when we seek our
own being in all that lives in the depths, flows in the air,
all that creeps and flies, in all that our senses perceive in
the majestic glow of the stars, in the powerful depths of
universal space, in the immeasurably distant flow of time, that
all that does not contain our being, the true source of our
humanity, that it becomes gloomy when we look here for our
humanity. The description has led us thus far to show that we
must find the way past the Guardian of the Threshold, who has
told us so much about the meaning of the spiritual world, over
to what is still night-cloaked, black gloom, so that it can
become bright there, and in this brightness the light arises to
illumine before the eyes of our soul our own being, and
therewith the being and essence and interweaving of the
world.
It
must be clear to us that in the moment — and we have come
so far in the description — when we have crossed over the
abyss of being, past the Guardian of the Threshold, in that
moment an important change takes place in the human being, that
is, in ourselves.
Let
us look, my dear sisters and brothers, at our human existence
as it is between birth and death on earth: we grasp the world
thinking, we grasp the world feeling, we act in the world by
willing. But thinking, feeling and willing are interwoven in
our human earthly existence. If we want to carry out something
in the near future, we consider it first, so what we carry out
is already present as a seed in our thoughts. We see it flowing
out in impulses of will. We feel that it is worthy. We feel
love flowing to this or that being. Because we feel it, we form
a thought about it. Or we go beyond that and carry out a deed
of love towards the being, we let ourselves grow wings of love,
and are urged forward to willing. But all that —
thinking, feeling, willing — is closely related to our
humanity as it unfolds between birth and death in the physical
world. We are at one in thinking, feeling and willing.
And
the truth is that we are only really awake in our thoughts.
They are bright and clear, although the Guardian of the
Threshold had revealed them to be illusory. They are bright and
clear, we are awake in them.
Our
feeling is darker and less clear. We are closer to existence in
feeling, but the content of what we feel is like a dream, so
that we can only speak of dream-feeling, even when awake.
The
will, however, as it emerges from our being, remains at first
completely unclear to our normal consciousness. We have the
thought that we want this or that; the thought appears, grasps
the organism; the organism acts, carries out the thought; we
see what we have carried out, again with thought. But the will
itself rests in deep sleep, as do the things in our soul rest
between falling asleep and awakening.
But
the initiate sees the thoughts in their living state, which
they were in before the human being had descended from the
supersensible world to the sensory one. He sees radiant being
in the thoughts. But this radiant being he sees is not the
illusion of thoughts as in ordinary thinking.
We
stand beside the Guardian of the Threshold. The abyss of being
is there; before us — beyond the abyss, beyond the
threshold — is the black, night-cloaked gloom; but from
out of the darkness gleaming, living shapes are moving. We say
to ourselves — because we sense that the kind of thoughts
we had as physical persons have abandoned us — we say to
ourselves: There is our flowing, living thinking. It doesn't
belong to us now, it belongs to the world. Light on light,
thought extracts itself from the black gloom. We know that
thought, all our thinking, is there as the first brightness
within the black gloom that we are approaching.
And
then we see something further down. We have the feeling —
and the Guardian of the Threshold points to it with an
admonishing gesture — we see how the darkness below is
becoming fire-like. Fire, dark fire yes, but fire that we can
sense psychically, spreads out below us. What we recognize
as our willing comes towards us over the abyss of being. The
initiate gradually learns the following: What happens when
thinking merges with willing? The thought — of what is
wanted — is grasped; then this thought merges with
corporeality as beneficent fire. What brings the will to
existence is warmth, which is fire when our own will meets us
from out of the darkness.
And
between this warmth, from which our willing streams toward us
across the abyss of being (for our human will is a mere
reflection of our cosmic will) — between this warm, dark
out-streaming from below, which has at most a whiff of
bluish-violet, and the bright lights of thoughts above, between
both there is an interweaving, flowing warmth rising, light
descending. Light-enveloped warmth rising, warmth-enveloped
light streaming down: that is our feeling.
It
is a powerful picture which the Guardian of the Threshold
draws. And now we know that when we cross over from the sensory
world, from the world of physical reality in which we are
between birth and death, into the world of the spirit, then we
will be — in thinking, feeling and willing — no
longer the unity that we are here; there we are Three. In the
universe, we are Three: our thinking merges with light across
the threshold; our will becomes fire; our feeling becomes
light-enveloped fire.
We
must have the courage to expand and intensify the Self, the I,
so that it holds the Three together when we cross over. We can
do this once we are permeated with what could otherwise be a
banality: that our head is the source of all our senses and
thinking: All our senses and thoughts are distributed over the
whole body, but what is especially expressed in our head is
that in its roundness, with an opening below, it imitates the
shape of the universe. If we can say to ourselves in all
seriousness and inner ardency: my head is inwardly and
outwardly an imitation of the world's shape, we feel then, in
that we want to view the head from within, how this perspective
expands to include the universe, which is only concentrated in
our head for our earthly vision.
We
should then intensely feel how our heart, the physical
expression of our soul, does not only beat because of what is
in our body, because of what is enclosed within the skin; we
breathe in the air, which is the impetus of the heartbeat, we
breathe it out again. The world in all its grandeur and majesty
participates in our heartbeat. What is sensed in our heart is
not merely what is within us: it is the universal
pulse-beat.
If
we consider how our limbs work through willing, it gives us the
strength to not only will what is within us. Consider for a
moment how the forces of heredity are in us when we are born,
how the forces of karma, which we have acquired through many,
many earth-lives, live in our willing. Let us think of all
that, and feel: when we will, world-force lives in our limbs,
not merely human force.
Just think, my dear sisters and brothers, while still here at
the Guardian of the Threshold's side he points over to the
brightly lit, universally living and acting thoughts; to what
wells up as warmth, light-bringing, light-filled; to what
spiritually wafts over us from below like warm wind — the
universe's fire, which is the ur-force of the will.
So
we hear, resounding, what the Guardian of the Threshold has to
say to us in this situation:
Behold
the Three
(thinking, feeling, willing; man is split in three)
Behold the Three,
They are the One,
When you in earthly life
the human imprint bear.
Experience the head's cosmic form
The Guardian makes this sign:
[It is drawn on the blackboard.]
so
that we stop and feel the head's cosmic form in this closed,
upward pointing triangle. Let us concentrate on this.
Feel the heart's cosmic beat
The Guardian makes this sign:
[It is drawn on the blackboard.]
for
us to feel in this sign the wave-like pulse of the universe,
which crosses in the heart.
Consider the cosmic force of the limbs.
The Guardian of the Threshold makes the other sign:
[It is drawn on the blackboard:]
We
should concentrate on this line in order to sense the mantric
force of this line and of the whole verse.
Then
the Guardian of the Threshold strengthens it again:
They are the Three,
The Three, which as the One
In earthly being live.
This is the verse by which the Guardian announces how we are to
prepare — through forceful courage, through ardent
striving for knowledge — to sense the wings which carry
us over from the One to the Three. In the physical world, we
are the One. In the spiritual world, we are the Three, which we
experience in imaginative pictures.
[Written on the blackboard]
The Guardian reminds us:
See the Three,
They are the One,
When you in earthly life
The human imprint bear.
[Alongside the first sign on the blackboard is written:]
Experience the head's cosmic shape
the cosmic shape can be experienced in the head
[Alongside the second sign is written:]
Sense the heart's cosmic beat
the cosmic beat can be sensed in the heart
[Alongside the third sign is written:]
Consider the limbs' cosmic force
the cosmic force can be considered in the movement of the limbs.
The escalation is:
[The following words are underlined:]
Experience
Sense
Consider
Shape
Beat
Force
The
three lines must be strengthened by concentrating on these
figures.
[Written:]
They are the Three,
The Three, which as the One
In earthly being live.
My
dear friends, when we are standing here in earthly existence
— and we are still doing so, we are just preparing to
cross to the spiritual world — we ascribe to our head our
spirit, in that it contains thoughts. At first, though, this
spirit is only apparent. The thoughts are the appearance of the
spirit. We ascribe the thoughts to our head, that is, we
ascribe the spirit to our head, because the spirit lives in the
form of thoughts during earthly existence.
But
we can do something else, recalling the Guardian of the
Threshold's admonition. In this situation, as we are preparing
to cross over the abyss of being, we must endeavor to
concentrate on the force we normally use when we move a limb,
when we walk or stand, when our will pervades us. We must
endeavor to concentrate to the extent that we will each
thought, as though it were being pushed out. We must sense the
thought being pushed out as when we stretch out an arm: thus,
reality passes through the will into the thoughts. Then the
things perceived by our senses, whereas they came to us
previously as the appearance of color or tone, now stream
toward us from the multifaceted sensory appearance as cosmic
will.
My
dear sisters and brothers: Learn to extend your thoughts out to
the world as you learn to stretch out your hands through
willing. Just as the objects of the world respond when you
extend your will to them, offering resistance, so do the
spirits offer resistance when you extend your thoughts to them,
in that the will permeates them. If we do this, we are
interweaving reality in wisdom. The Guardian of the Threshold's
admonishes us once again.
The Guardian's last admonition:
The head's spirit,
You can will it;
(otherwise we only think it, now we will it; and when we do so,
willing becomes something different)
And willing
(the willing of thoughts)
provides you with
The senses' multi-forming heaven-weave;
You interweave with wisdom.
The
next thing the Guardian of the Threshold points to is the
heart, in which the rhythm of our humanity is concentrated. We
cannot bring anything except feeling into the heart, that is,
feeling here in the sensory world between birth and death. But
we must also bring the feelings to the heart when we are in the
spiritual world.
If
we could feel the heart as if the world were feeling our heart,
because we are, after all, in the world, then our feeling would
be different. Just as willing becomes “the senses'
multi-forming heaven-weave”, so feeling becomes something
which must be conceived of in a way that we can say —
Look: thinking, the spirit's head, becomes the will; feeling
remains feeling, but rays out to thinking on one side and
willing on the other. It is both at the same time. Therefore,
at this point we must get used to concentrating on a line in
which we interweave what rays upward and downward.
This line must read as follows: “And feeling becomes your
will's thinking, your thinking's will, the awakening seed of
cosmic life.” Then you live in the glow. This is not a
dying away glow, it is the world's revelation in beauty, which
can also be called “glow” in the sense of
“gloria”. The glow here means gloria.
Thus, the Guardian's second admonition is:
The heart's soul,
You can feel it;
And feeling becomes for you
The awakening seed of cosmic life:
Will's thinking, thinking's will.
You live in the glow.
[This second verse is written on the blackboard and
“heart's” and “feeling” are
underlined:]
The heart's soul,
You can feel it;
And feeling becomes for you
The awakening seed of cosmic life:
Will's thinking, thinking's will.
You live in the glow.
You
must, my dear sisters and brothers, by practicing this, try to
think that — the will's thinking, the thinking's will
— flow together in one, because it is so in the
world.
The
third thing to which the Guardian of the Threshold points is
the force of our limbs. The Guardian of the Threshold demands
that that our spirit wills our limbs, that we do not feel that
what we do is the result of exerting our own force, but that we
observe it as if we stepped out of our bodies and were standing
beside ourselves. Then the will's thinking becomes the thinking
which we unfold here: the will's goal-oriented human striving.
And now we recognize the virtue of human diligence, what human
will can accomplish in the world's evolution. The guardian of
the Threshold admonishes us:
[The third verse is written on the blackboard and
“limbs” is underlined.]
The limbs' force,
You can think it
And thinking becomes
The will's goal-oriented human striving.
You strive in virtue.
The escalation is:
[Now the following three words are underlined:]
weave
live
strive.
The other escalation is:
wisdom
glow
virtue.
Now
I will read the lines as the appear to us at first when the
Guardian speaks them to us:
The head's spirit,
You can will it;
And willing becomes for you
The senses' multi-formed heaven's interweaving.
You interweave in wisdom.
The heart's soul,
You can feel it;
And feeling becomes for you
The will's thinking, thinking will´s
Awakening seed of cosmic life.
You live in the glow.
The limbs' force,
You can think it;
And thinking becomes
The will's goal-oriented human striving.
You strive in virtue.
That
is the Guardian of the Threshold's last admonition.
That is the decisive point which is indicated by the words
which are spoken here as the words Michael himself speaks,
because this Esoteric School has been founded and is sustained
by Michael and his force. Now we have come to the important
point in our instruction where, if we have conscientiously
practiced all that we have learned, it gives us wings to fly
over the yawning, deep abyss of being.
Everything which has been said in this Michael School shall
again be accompanied by the sign and seals of Michael; for all
has been given in such a way that while it resounds through the
space of this School, Michael is present, which may be
confirmed by his sign:
[Michael-sign (in red) Come in, the door has opened, you will
become a free human being]
and
which may be confirmed by his seal, which he has impressed on
the threefold Rosicrucian verse:
Ex deo nascimur
In Christo morimur
Per spiritum sanctum reviviscimus
the
seal makes us feel the first line in this gesture:
[The lower seal is drawn on the blackboard.]
[lower seal-gesture]
the second line in this gesture:
[the middle seal gesture is drawn on the blackboard]
[middle seal gesture]
the third verse in this gesture:
[the upper seal gesture is drawn on the blackboard]
[upper seal-gesture]
As
we know, this first gesture means [beside the lower gesture is
written:]
I
revere the Father
We
feel this as we say “Ex deo nascimur” and confirm
it by the gesture, which is Michael's seal.
The
second gesture means [beside the second gesture is
written:]
I
love the Son
We
feel this while saying “In Christo morimur”, thus
expressing the feeling through what lies in the
Michael-Seal.
The
third gesture means:
I
unite with the spirit
It
accompanies, in feeling, “Per spiritum sanctum
reviviscimus”. It is the gesture which is Michael's seal
upon the third part of the Rosicrucian verse.
Thus,
Michael's Sign and Seal accompany the path onward, which will
be followed in this School for spiritual development:
[the Michael-Sign is made]
[The following three lines are spoken, accompanied by the three
seal-gestures:
Ex deo nascimur
In Christo morimur
Per spiritum sanctum reviviscimus.
Then the moment comes when the Guardian of the Threshold's
decisive words resound as though coming from Michael, as though
from the cosmic distances. After the Guardian has said how we
are to prepare ourselves — and we feel this preparation
to be necessary — then his words resound as though coming
from Michael, as though coming from the cosmic distances:
Come in.
The door has opened.
You will become
A true human being.
We
must create the feeling that we are not speaking ourselves, but
that as we are speaking it becomes objective, that we hear it,
as if it is coming from the other side:
[Across the mantra “See the three” on the
blackboard, the following is written in red chalk:]
Come in.
The door has opened.
You will become
A true human being.
In
the following lessons, what resounds on the other side of the
threshold will be described.
But
now let us again consider — for all real development
always leads back to the starting point — how from all
the beings of the world the challenge speaks to us about what
we have learned from the Guardian's mouth:
O man, know thyself!
So resounds the Cosmic-Word.
You hear it strong in soul,
You feel it firm in spirit.
Who speaks with such cosmic might?
Who speaks with such depth of heart?
Does it work through distant radiant space
Into your senses' sense of being?
Does it ring through weaving waves of time
Into your life's evolving stream?
It's you yourself who,
In feeling space, in experiencing time,
The Word create, feeling foreign
In space's soulless void,
Because you lose the force of thought
In time's destroying flow.
Once more — confirming all, confirming Michael's presence
— the sign and seal of Michael:
[the Michael-sign is made]
[The following is spoken together with the seal-gestures:]
Ex deo nascimur
In Christo morimur
Per spiritum sanctum reviviscimus.
The
mantric verses given here in order to practice contain the
force necessary to experience what is described here. Only the
members of this Class may possess them, no one else. If someone
who belongs to the School cannot attend a lesson during which
he would have received the corresponding verse, he may receive
it from another member who was present. But for each time this
happens permission must be received either from Dr. Wegman or
myself. However, the one who is to receive the verse may not
request permission, but only the one who is to give it.
Once permission has been granted to give someone the verses, it
continues to hold good for that particular person. For every
other person, permission must be obtained from Dr. Wegman or
myself. It would be useless for the one who wants to receive
the verses to request permission; only the one who is to give
them should ask. So, if one wants to have the verses, he must
go to someone who has them legitimately. The latter should then
ask for each individual to whom he wishes to give them.
If
someone makes notes of something else, other than the verses,
he is only authorized to keep them for one week; after that
they must be burned. We must really observe the occult rules.
An occult rule is contained in all I have said and insist upon.
This is not an arbitrary administrative measure, but because if
esoteric things fall into the wrong hands, then, my dear
sisters and brothers, the mantras lose their force. It is
simply based on an occult law.
*
At
twelve o'clock tomorrow is the Speech Formation course; at
10.45 the Theology course; at five o'clock the Pastoral
Medicine course and at eight o'clock the lecture for
members.
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