EL,
The Hague, 3-21-'13, Good Friday
Our study
today will be devoted to how a soul can raise itself into spiritual
worlds. One who does his exercises regularly with patience and
enthusiasm must also make progress; it's just a matter of him
becoming aware of his progress.
After the
meditation it's good to begin a rest period, to make the soul quite
empty, to just wait and see what Imaginations come to us from higher
worlds. Much also depends on the mood or attitude of our soul; we
should always approach our exercises with the greatest
devotion. The experiences that set in depend upon the
meditator's individuality and karma. I'd like to pick out two
of them from a large number. One is of being lifted out into space,
into endlessness. One feels as if one were expanded and lifted
up; of course a leaving of one's body is connected with this. This
experience gives rise to a feeling of bliss and happiness. While one
is raised one sees a reddening; yellowish red clouds come
towards us from which Shapes gradually crystallize. Then
there's a second experience of diving down, of sinking into the
depths, accompanied by a feeling of
constriction and choking. The spiritual beings one feels in this
immersion appear to one in blue-violet gleams. They give a man
a feeling of reverent, shuddering fear and induce him to take a look
at himself. They show a man what he's really like, all of his defects
and mistakes and moral weaknesses in their whole magnitude and
abominable nature. It's true that we're already pointed in this
direction by the retrospect that we do every evening, but a man can't
see things as clearly with his physical consciousness. These beings
who emerge from the depths get us to see plainly what habitual
mistakes and wrong thinking produce in us. The beings who
appear to us in a bluish violet light and show us our errors
belong to the angels, whereas the upper, reddish yellow light
figures that pronounce their judgment like punishing justice belong
to the archangels. These experiences can also approach a man in a
different way, namely through sounds. When his judgment is pronounced
by an archangel with a thunderous voice it's much more scary, much
harder to bear. But when a man has come to this hour that sets in
after he's experienced the Guardian of the Threshold then he must
have gotten rid of the habit of being afraid.
Just to be
understood, let's mention an example, though the Imagination could
just as easily take on another form. A man can see the figures that
ascend from the depths in blue-violet colour tones with sorrowful,
pain-filled faces. These high beings feel sad about us and our
mistakes; this arouses a feeling of boundless shame in us. If a man
sees his errors and regrets his mistakes he will see that these
beings' faces radiate joyfully. A man must feel this connection
between the microcosm and the macrocosm. The beings who sink down on
man as punishing justice and sometimes surround him evoke fear in
him. But a feeling of joy can be added to this if these beings show
him the possibilities that are in him and that he can develop. We can
arrive at these experiences if we meditate
it thinks me in the right way. But when
a man sees how these figures out of balled-together reddish
clouds try to join the bluish violet figures that are striving up
from the depths, something like a conflict arises in him. He
distinctly hears a voice that says: Don't believe that, believe
what comes out of your own soul. That has the same value as what you
see out in the cosmos.
That's
Lucifer's voice, and this is the greatest temptation that a man can
have, since Lucifer outshines all other beings in beauty,
cunning and seduction. Like the blue-violet beings he climbs out of
the depths. We should also realize that form is no longer of
importance in these regions. The Spirits of Form who are called
Elohim in the Bible are of importance on the earth. In spiritual
worlds we find that we lift ourselves above them and can approach the
Spirits of Movement.
One thing we
should never forget: a feeling of deepest thankfulness towards higher
beings and spiritual worlds. Just as an Essene saw the day-star
approaching every morning full of thankfulness and prayed that it
might appear, so we should return to the temple of our physical
body every morning with reverent thanks to the spiritual beings
who built it up so cleverly during the Saturn, Sun, Moon and earth
periods, and in which alone we can acquire earth consciousness:
Ex Deo nascimur.
And then with this
feeling of reverence and thankfulness that we've gained we
become familiar with the spiritual, Godly element, with what frees us
from the fetters of corporeality, brings us into the spiritual,
super-sensible world and gets us into a blissfulness that's so
great and tremendous that an esoteric doesn't dare to say the
name of the very highest being:
In ... morimur. And what's expressed in
the last part of our rosicrucian verse:
Per Spiritum Sanctum reviviscimus
is the self-consciousness that brings a man over into a new
incarnation. But a living in the vowels and consonants of this
wonderful verse will bring us much further than meditation on the
three parts that consist of 2x3 and 1x4 words.
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