69. EL, Berlin, 11-5-'10
As always, we'll ask the
Spirit of the Day for help in our work. (Saturday)
Great
embracing Spirit,
You who filled endless space when none of my body's members existed yet;
You were.
I raise my soul to you.
I was in you.
I was part of your force.
You sent out your forces, and the first, original picture of my
body's form was reflected in the earth's first beginnings.
I was in the forces that you sent out.
You were.
My archetype looked at you.
It looked at me, myself, I who was a part of you.
You were.
Great
embracing Spirit
May my I raise itself from below upward,
May it get an inkling of you in the all-embracing.
May the spirit of my being be illumined
By the light of your messengers.
May the soul of my being be enkindled by the fire flames of your servants.
May the will of my I grasp
Your creatorword's force.
You are.
May your being permeate my will
That my I be grasped by an understanding of your light's shining,
Your life's love-warmth
And your being's creator words.
You are.
Yesterday we said that a
pupil hears a spiritual sound from the east. But if a pupil would now want
to say that he knew what the spiritual sounds like, that he had now heard
his first spiritual sound, he would be making a big mistake. For this sound
is, as it were, the last word out of the physical realm.
The spiritual world is for
the time being completely colorless, lightless, soundless and so on. Any
colors that we might see are nothing spiritual — they come from our
own inner life, and, namely, they indicate qualities that we don't have
but must acquire. For instance, if we see a red color it means that
we don't have love in us, that we must develop it in ourselves.
If we see violet, it's telling us that we must acquire
devotional piety.
If we hear noises, it's
nothing spiritual, but something that comes out of us. If someone becomes
a vegetarian but his body still has a longing for meat, even if he's unaware
of it, then this craving resounds in misleading sounds. All of these
noises and sounds are only raven croaks.
If a figure from past ages
appears to a pupil it's quite wrong for him to want to interpret it right
away. He must be able to wait with his interpretation until later. If such
an image appears before our soul, it dissipates as soon as we approach
it with our thoughts. But if it's a genuine image, it'll
rise before us later and remain there in its true form, and
we'll know what it means. We must be able to wait and be
silent. We should speak about such experiences much less than we
think about them. We should look upon and treat our whole spiritual
life as something sacred. We must tell ourselves that experiences of
sounds, colors, etc. don't come from the spiritual realm but
from our own ego that's surged through be a sea of passions an
desires, just as Noah's ark had the sea surging around it. As
we tell ourselves clearly and relentlessly that these experiences and
phenomena are nothing spiritual, we must let our ego go and as it
were, let it fly away, just as the dove was released from
Noah's ark and didn't return.
A pupil then has another
occult experience. After we've seen that the spiritual world is empty for
us, we then see that these experiences are nevertheless important for us.
Colors become warners and advisors. They tell us what we still have to
acquire. We realize that sounds reflect our bodily cravings. And when
the images that we've let work quietly tell us their
significance, our soul becomes enriched by such experiences.
That's like the dove that was released the second time and came
back with an olive leaf, the emblem of peace.
But an esoteric's soul isn't
left entirely to its own devices on this difficult path; there's
things it can hang on to. The rose cross, for instance. We should let
it work on us; we should realize that the wood's black is our
corporeality that's hardened and withered, that we must let our
lower ego that identifies itself with the body become just as dark
and dead as the cross's wood. Then the higher, spiritual ego
will work in us in the way that the black of the cross is changed
into bright, radiant lines of light. Likewise, the red of the roses
will change from the color of love working inwardly, to green, the
color of life working outwardly.
When we experience symbols
it's the ones that make us suffer that are genuine and from the spiritual
world, and not the ones that give us joy. We must carry them around with us
until we've grasped their meaning. The spiritual from them must
be born in us while we suffer.
Another thing we must realize
is that we can't be unegoistical. We are never ever unegoistical. And even
if we imagine that we've done something that's entirely
selfless, we're mistaken. We can't act selflessly.
It's world karma that lets us act egoistically World karma is
God.
And if we get to the point
where we act in a good and noble way, then it's God in us who's good. As
we get more selfless, we'll for instance, notice that we don't
get scared or terrified anymore. If there's a sudden loud noise
nearby, we won't jump as much as before. The God who lets us
act in a good and noble way is our model. Our archetypal model made
us into what we are now. And we must become a copy of our archetype
again.
Once we've understood this
rightly, we'll also understand the esoteric Rosicrucian saying:
Ex Deo nascimur,
in … morimur,
Per spiritum Sanctum revivscimus.
An esoteric doesn't
say what's left out here. When we begin to say this line our
feeling must go to what's unutterable. And only when
one's feeling comes back can one go on speaking. Anyone who
experiences this inwardly with the right feeling will also rightly
understand the other esoteric verse:
In
the spirit lay the germ of my body.
And the spirit has imprinted in my body
The eyes of sense,
That through them I may see
The lights of bodies.
And the spirit has imprinted in my body
Reason and sensation
And feeling and will,
That through them I may perceive bodies
And act upon them.
In the spirit lay the germ of my body.
In my body lies the germ of the spirit.
And I will incorporate into my spirit
The super-sensible eyes
That through them I may behold the light of spirits.
And I will imprint in my spirit
Wisdom and power and love,
So that through me the spirits may act
And I become a self-conscious organ
Of their deeds.
In my body lies the germ of the spirit.
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