The
information given in the following chapters constitutes steps
in an esoteric training, the name and character of which will
be understood by all who apply this information in the right
way. It refers to the three stages through which the training
of the spiritual life leads to a certain degree of initiation.
But only so much will here be explained as can be publicly
imparted. These are merely indications extracted from a still
deeper and more intimate doctrine. In esoteric training itself
a quite definite course of instruction is followed. Certain
exercises enable the soul to attain to a conscious intercourse
with the spiritual world. These exercises bear about the same
relation to what will be imparted in the following pages, as
the instruction given in a higher strictly disciplined school
bears to the incidental training. But impatient dabbling,
devoid of earnest perseverance, can lead to nothing at all. The
study of Spiritual Science can only be successful if the
student retain what has already been indicated in the preceding
chapter, and on the basis of this proceed further.
The three
stages which the above-mentioned tradition specifies, are as
follows: (1) preparation; (2) enlightenment;
(3) initiation. It is not altogether necessary that the
first of these three stages should be completed before the
second can be begun, nor that the second, in turn, be completed
before the third be started. In certain respects it is possible
to partake of enlightenment, and even of initiation, and in
other respects still be in the preparatory stage. Yet it will
be necessary to spend a certain time in the stage of
preparation before any enlightenment can begin; and, at least
in some respects, enlightenment must be completed before it is
even possible to enter upon the stage of initiation. But in
describing them it is necessary, for the sake of clarity, that
the three stages be made to follow in order.
Preparation consists in a strict and definite cultivation of
the life of thought and feeling, through which the
psycho-spiritual body becomes equipped with higher senses and
organs of activity in the same way that natural forces have
fitted the physical body with organs built out of indeterminate
living matter.
To begin
with, the attention of the soul is directed to certain events
in the world that surrounds us. Such events are, on the one
hand, life that is budding, growing, and flourishing, and on
the other hand, all phenomena connected with fading, decaying,
and withering. The student can observe these events
simultaneously, wherever he turns his eyes and on every
occasion they naturally evoke in him feelings and thoughts; but
in ordinary circumstances he does not devote himself
sufficiently to them. He hurries on too quickly from impression
to impression. It is necessary, therefore, that he should fix
his attention intently and consciously upon these phenomena.
Wherever he observes a definite kind of blooming and
flourishing, he must banish everything else from his soul, and
entirely surrender himself, for a short time, to this one
impression. He will soon convince himself that a feeling which
heretofore in a similar case, would merely have flitted through
his soul, now swells out and assumes a powerful and energetic
form. He must now allow this feeling to reverberate quietly
within himself while keeping inwardly quite still. He must cut
himself off from the outer world, and simply and solely follow
what his soul tells him of this blossoming and flourishing.
Yet it
must not be thought that much progress can be made if the
senses are blunted to the world. First look at the things as
keenly and as intently as you possibly can; then only let the
feeling which expands to life, and the thought which arises in
the soul, take possession of you. The point is that the
attention should be directed with perfect inner balance upon
both phenomena. If the necessary tranquility be attained and
you surrender yourself to the feeling which expands to life in
the soul, then, in due time, the following experience will
ensue. Thoughts and feelings of a new kind and unknown before
will be noticed uprising in the soul. Indeed, the more often
the attention be fixed alternately upon something growing,
blossoming and flourishing, and upon something else that is
fading and decaying, the more vivid will these feelings become.
And just as the eyes and ears of the physical body are built by
natural forces out of living matter, so will the organs of
clairvoyance build themselves out of the feelings and thoughts
thus evoked. A quite definite form of feeling is connected with
growth and expansion, and another equally definite with all
that is fading and decaying. But this is only the case if the
effort be made to cultivate these feelings in the way
indicated. It is possible to describe approximately what these
feelings are like. A full conception of them is within the
reach of all who undergo these inner experiences.
If the
attention be frequently fixed on the phenomena of growing,
blooming and flourishing, a feeling remotely allied to the
sensation of a sunrise will ensue, while the phenomena of
fading and decaying will produce an experience comparable, in
the same way, to the slow rising of the moon on the horizon.
Both these feelings are forces which, when duly cultivated and
developed to ever increasing intensity, lead to the most
significant spiritual results. A new world is opened to the
student if he systematically and deliberately surrenders
himself to such feelings. The soul-world, the so-called astral
plane, begins to dawn upon him. Growth and decay are no longer
facts which make indefinite impressions on him as of old, but
rather they form themselves into spiritual lines and figures of
which he had previously suspected nothing. And these lines and
figures have, for the different phenomena, different forms. A
blooming flower, an animal in the process of growth, a tree
that is decaying, evoke in his soul different lines. The soul
world (astral plane) broadens out slowly before him. These
lines and figures are in no sense arbitrary. Two students who
have reached the corresponding stage of development will always
see the same lines and figures under the same conditions. Just
as a round table will be seen as round by two normal persons,
and not as round by one and square by the other, so too, at the
sight of a flower, the same spiritual figure is presented to
the soul. And just as the forms of animals and plants are
described in ordinary natural history, so too, the spiritual
scientist describes or draws the spiritual forms of the process
of growth and decay, according to species and kind.
If the
student has progressed so far that he can perceive the
spiritual forms of those phenomena which are physically visible
to his external sight, he is then not far from the stage where
he will behold things which have no physical existence, and
which therefore remain entirely hidden (occult) from those who
have not received suitable instruction and training.
It should
be emphasized that the student must never lose himself in
speculations on the meaning of one thing or another. Such
intellectualizing will only draw him away from the right road.
He should look out on the world with keen, healthy senses and
quickened power of observation, and then give himself up to the
feeling that arises within him. He should not try to make out,
through intellectual speculation, the meaning of things, but
rather allow the things to disclose themselves. It should be
remarked that artistic feeling, when coupled with a quiet
introspective nature, forms the best preliminary condition for
the development of spiritual faculties. This feeling pierces
through the superficial aspect of things, and in so doing
touches their secrets.
A further
point of importance is what spiritual science calls orientation
in the higher worlds. This is attained when the student is
permeated, through and through, with the conscious realization
that feelings and thoughts are just as much veritable realities
as are tables and chairs in the world of the physical senses.
In the soul and thought world, feelings and thoughts react upon
each other just as do physical objects in the physical world.
As long as the student is not vividly permeated with this
consciousness, he will not believe that a wrong thought in his
mind may have as devastating an effect upon other thoughts that
spread life in the thought world as the effect wrought by a
bullet fired at random upon the physical objects it hits. He
will perhaps never allow himself to perform a physically
visible action which he considers to be wrong, though he will
not shrink from harboring wrong thoughts and feelings, for
these appear harmless to the rest of the world. There can be no
progress, however, on the path to higher knowledge unless we
guard our thoughts and feelings in just the same way we guard
out steps in the physical world. If we see a wall before us, we
do not attempt to dash right through it, but turn aside. In
other words, we guide ourselves by the laws of the physical
world. There are such laws, too, for the soul and thought
world, only they cannot impose themselves on us from without.
They must flow out of the life of the soul itself. This can be
attained if we forbid ourselves to harbor wrong thoughts and
feelings. All arbitrary flitting to and fro in thought, all
accidental ebbing and flowing of emotion must be forbidden in
the same way. In so doing we do not become deficient in
feeling. On the contrary, if we regulate our inner life in this
way, we shall soon find ourselves becoming rich in feelings and
creative with genuine imagination. In the place of petty
emotionalism and capricious flights of thought, there appear
significant emotions and thoughts that are fruitful. Feelings
and thoughts of this kind lead the student to orientation in
the spiritual world. He gains a right position in relation to
the things of the spiritual world; a distinct and definite
result comes into effect in his favor. Just as he, as a
physical man, finds his way among physical things, so, too, his
path now leads him between growth and decay, which he has
already come to know in the way described above. On the one
hand, he follows all processes of growing and flourishing and,
on the other, of withering and decaying in a way that is
necessary for his own and the world's advancement.
The
student has also to bestow a further care on the world of
sound. He must discriminate between sounds that are produced by
the so-called inert (lifeless) bodies, for instance, a bell, or
a musical instrument, or a falling mass, and those which
proceed from a living creature (an animal or a human being.)
When a bell is struck, we hear the sound and connect a pleasant
feeling with it; but when we hear the cry of an animal, we can,
besides our own feeling, detect through it the manifestation of
an inward experience of the animal, whether of pleasure or
pain. It is with the latter kind of sound that the student sets
to work. He must concentrate his whole attention on the fact
that the sound tells him of something that lies outside his own
soul. He must immerse himself in this foreign thing. He must
closely unite his own feeling with the pleasure or pain of
which the sound tells him. He must get beyond the point of
caring whether, for him, the sound is pleasant or unpleasant,
agreeable or disagreeable, and his soul must be filled with
whatever is occurring in the being from which the sound
proceeds. Through such exercises, if systematically and
deliberately performed, the student will develop within himself
the faculty of intermingling, as it were, with the being from
which the sound proceeds. A person sensitive to music will find
it easier than one who is unmusical to cultivate his inner life
in this way; but no one should suppose that a mere sense for
music can take the place of this inner activity. The student
must learn to feel in this way in the face of the whole of
nature. This implants a new faculty in his world of thought and
feeling. Through her resounding tones, the whole of nature
begins to whisper her secrets to the student. What was hitherto
merely incomprehensible noise to his soul becomes by this means
a coherent language of nature. And whereas hitherto he only
heard sound from the so-called inanimate objects, he now is
aware of a new language of the soul. Should he advance further
in this inner culture, he will soon learn that he can hear what
hitherto he did not even surmise. He begins to hear with the
soul.
To this,
one thing more must be added before the highest point in this
region can be attained. Of very great importance for the
development of the student is the way in which he listens to
others when they speak. He must accustom himself to do this in
such a way that, while listening, his inner self is absolutely
silent. If someone expresses an opinion and another listens,
assent or dissent will, generally speaking, stir in the inner
self of the listener. Many people in such cases feel themselves
impelled to an expression of their assent, or more especially,
of their dissent. In the student, all such assent or dissent
must be silenced. It is not imperative that he should suddenly
alter his way of living by trying to attain at all times to
this complete inner silence. He will have to begin by doing so
in special cases, deliberately selected by himself. Then quite
slowly and by degrees, this new way of listening will creep
into his habits, as of itself. In spiritual research this is
systematically practiced. The student feels it his duty to
listen, by way of practice, at certain times to the most
contradictory views and, at the same time, bring entirely to
silence all assent, and more especially, all adverse criticism.
The point is that in so doing, not only all purely intellectual
judgment be silenced, but also all feelings of displeasure,
denial, or even assent. The student must at all times be
particularly watchful lest such feelings, even when not on the
surface, should still lurk in the innermost recess of the soul.
He must listen, for example, to the statements of people who
are, in some respects, far beneath him, and yet while doing so
suppress every feeling of greater knowledge or superiority. It
is useful for everyone to listen in this way to children, for
even the wisest can learn incalculably much from children. The
student can thus train himself to listen to the words of others
quite selflessly, completely shutting down his own person and
his opinions and way of feeling. When he practices listening
without criticism, even when a completely contradictory opinion
is advanced, when the most hopeless mistake is committed before
him, he then learns, little by little, to blend himself with
the being of another and become identified with it. Then he
hears through the words into the soul of the other. Through
continued exercise of this kind, sound becomes the right medium
for the perception of soul and spirit. Of course it implies the
very strictest self-discipline, but the latter leads to a high
goal. When these exercises are practiced in connection with the
other already given, dealing with the sounds of nature, the
soul develops a new sense of hearing. She is now able to
perceive manifestations from the spiritual world which do not
find their expression in sounds perceptible to the physical
ear. The perception of the “inner word” awakens.
Gradually truths reveal themselves to the student from the
spiritual world. He hears speech uttered to him in a spiritual
way. Only to those who, by selfless listening, train themselves
to be really receptive from within, in stillness, unmoved by
personal opinion or feeling only to such can the higher beings
speak of whom spiritual science tells. As long as one hurls any
personal opinion or feeling against the speaker to whom one
must listen, the beings of the spiritual world remain
silent.
All higher
truths are attained through such inwardly instilled speech, and
what we hear from the lips of a true spiritual teacher has been
experienced by him in this manner. But this does not mean that
it is unimportant for us to acquaint ourselves with the
writings of spiritual science before we can ourselves hear such
inwardly instilled speech. On the contrary, the reading of such
writings and the listening to the teachings of spiritual
science are themselves means of attaining personal knowledge.
Every sentence of spiritual science we hear is of a nature to
direct the mind to the point which must be reached before the
soul can experience real progress. To the practice of all that
has here been indicated must be added the ardent study of what
the spiritual researchers impart to the world. In all esoteric
training such study belongs to the preparatory period, and all
other methods will prove ineffective if due receptivity for the
teachings of the spiritual researcher is lacking. For since
these instructions are culled from the living inner word, from
the living inwardly instilled speech, they are themselves
gifted with spiritual life. They are not mere words; they are
living powers. And while you follow the words of one who knows,
while you read a book that springs from real inner experience,
powers are at work in your soul which make you clairvoyant,
just as natural forces have created out of living matter your
eyes and your ears.
Enlightenment proceeds from very simple processes. Here, too,
it is a matter of developing certain feelings and thoughts
which slumber in every human being and must be awakened. It is
only when these simple processes are carried out with unfailing
patience, continuously and conscientiously, that they can lead
to the perception of the inner light-forms. The first step is
taken by observing different natural objects in a particular
way; for instance, a transparent and beautifully formed stone
(a crystal), a plant, and an animal. The student should
endeavor, at first, to direct his whole attention to a
comparison of the stone with the animal in the following
manner. The thoughts here mentioned should pass through his
soul accompanied by vivid feelings, and no other thought, no
other feeling, must mingle with them and disturb what should be
an intensely attentive observation. The student says to
himself: “The stone has a form; the animal also has a
form. The stone remains motionless in its place. The animal
changes its place. It is instinct (desire) which causes the
animal to change its place. Instincts, too, are served by the
form of the animal. Its organs and limbs are fashioned in
accordance with these instincts. The form of the stone is not
fashioned in accordance with desires, but in accordance with
desireless force.” (The fact here mentioned, in its
bearing on the contemplation of crystals, is in many ways
distorted by those who have only heard of it in an outward,
exoteric manner, and in this way such practices as
crystal-gazing have their origin Such manipulations are based
on a misunderstanding. They have been described in many books,
but they never form the subject of genuine esoteric
teaching.)
By sinking
deeply into such thoughts, and while doing so, observing the
stone and the animal with rapt attention, there arise in the
soul two quite separate kinds of feelings. From the stone there
flows into the soul the one kind of feeling, and from the
animal the other kind. The attempt will probably not succeed at
first, but little by little, with genuine and patient practice,
these feelings ensue. Only, this exercise must be practiced
over and over again. At first the feelings are only present as
long as the observation lasts. Later on they continue, and then
they grow to something which remains living in the soul. The
student has then but to reflect, and both feelings will always
arise, even without the contemplation of an external object.
Out of these feelings and the thoughts that are bound up with
them, the organs of clairvoyance are formed. If the plant
should then be included in this observation, it will be noticed
that the feeling flowing from it lies between the feelings
derived from the stone and the animal, in both quality and
degree. The organs thus formed are spiritual eyes. The students
gradually learns, by their means, to see something like soul
and spirit colors. The spiritual world with its lines and
figures remains dark as long as he has only attained what has
been described as preparation; through enlightenment this world
becomes light. Here it must also be noted that the words
“dark” and “light,” as well as the
other expressions used, only approximately describe what is
meant. This cannot be otherwise if ordinary language is used,
for this language was created to suit physical conditions.
Spiritual science describes that which, for clairvoyant organs,
flows from the stone, as blue, or blue-red; and that which is
felt as coming from the animal as red or red-yellow. In
reality, colors of a spiritual kind are seen. The color
proceeding the plant is green which little by little turns into
a light ethereal pink. The plant is actually that product of
nature which in higher worlds resembles, in certain respects,
its constitution in the physical world. The same does not apply
to the stone and the animal. It must now be clearly understood
that the above-mentioned colors only represent the principal
shades in the stone, plant and animal kingdom. In reality, all
possible intermediate shades are present. Every stone, every
plant, every animal has its own particular shade of color. In
addition to these there are also the beings of the higher
worlds who never incarnate physically, but who have their
colors, often wonderful, often horrible. Indeed, the wealth of
color in these higher worlds is immeasurably greater than in
the physical world.
Once the
faculty of seeing with spiritual eyes has been acquired, one
then encounters sooner or later the beings here mentioned, some
of them higher, some lower than man himself--beings that never
enter physical reality.
If this
point has been reached, the way to a great deal lies open. But
it is inadvisable to proceed further without paying careful
heed to what is said or otherwise imparted by the spiritual
researcher. And for that, too, which has been described,
attention paid to such experienced guidance is the very best
thing. Moreover, if a man has the strength and the endurance to
travel so far that he fulfills the elementary conditions of
enlightenment, he will assuredly seek and find the right
guidance.
But in any
circumstances, one precaution is necessary, failing which it
were better to leave untrodden all steps on the path to higher
knowledge. It is necessary that the student should lose none of
his qualities as a good and noble man, or his receptivity for
all physical reality. Indeed, throughout his training he must
continually increase his moral strength, his inner purity, and
his power of observation. To give an example: during the
elementary exercises on enlightenment, the student must take
care always to enlarge his sympathy for the animal and the
human worlds, and his sense for the beauty of nature. Failing
this care, such exercises would continually blunt that feeling
and that sense; the heart would become hardened, and the senses
blunted, and that could only lead to perilous results.
How
enlightenment proceeds if the student rises, in the sense of
the foregoing exercises, from the stone, the plant, and the
animal, up to man, and how, after enlightenment, under all
circumstances the union of the soul with the spiritual world is
effected, leading to initiation--with these things the
following chapters will deal, in as far as they can and may do
so.
In our
time the path to spiritual science is sought by many. It is
sought in many ways, and many dangerous and even despicable
practices are attempted. It is for this reason that they who
claim to know something of the truth in these matters place
before others the possibility of learning something of esoteric
training. Only so much is here imparted as accords with this
possibility. It is necessary that something of the truth should
become known, in order to prevent error causing great harm. No
harm can come to anyone following the way here described, so
long as he does not force matters. Only, one thing should be
noted: no student should spend more time and strength upon
these exercises than he can spare with due regard to his
station in life and to his duties; nor should he change
anything, for the time being, in the external conditions of his
life through taking this path. Without patience no genuine
results can be attained. After doing an exercise for a few
minutes, the student must be able to stop and continue quietly
his daily work, and no thought of these exercises should mingle
with the day's work. NO one is of use as an esoteric student or
will ever attain results of real value who has not learned to
wait in the highest and best sense of the word.
The
Control of Thoughts and Feelings
When the
student seeks the path leading to higher knowledge in the way
described in the preceding chapter, he should not omit to
fortify himself; throughout his work, with one ever present
thought. He must never cease repeating to himself that he may
have made quite considerable progress after a certain interval
of time, though it may not be apparent to him in the way he
perhaps expected; otherwise he can easily lose heart and
abandon all attempts after a short time. The powers and
faculties to be developed are of a most subtle kind, and differ
entirely in their nature from the conceptions previously formed
by the student. He had been accustomed to occupy himself
exclusively with the physical world; the world of spirit and
soul had been concealed from his vision and concepts. It is
therefore not surprising if he does not immediately notice the
powers of soul and spirit now developing in him. In this
respect there is a possibility of discouragement for those
setting out on the path to higher knowledge, if they ignore the
experience gathered by responsible investigators. The teacher
is aware of the progress made by his pupil long before the
latter is conscious of it He knows how the delicate spiritual
eyes begin to form themselves long before the pupil is aware of
this, and a great part of what he has to say is couched in such
terms as to prevent the pupil from losing patience and
perseverance before he can himself gain knowledge of his own
progress. The teacher, as we know, can confer upon the pupil no
powers which are not already latent within him, and his sole
function is to assist in the awakening of slumbering faculties.
But what he imparts out of his own experience is a pillar of
strength for the one wishing to penetrate through darkness to
light. Many abandon the path to higher knowledge soon after
having set foot upon it, because their progress is not
immediately apparent to them. And even when the first
experiences begin to dawn upon the pupil, he is apt to regard
them as illusions, because he had formed quite different
conceptions of what he was going to experience. He loses
courage, either because he regards these first experiences as
being of no value, or because they appear to him to be so
insignificant that he cannot believe they will lead him to any
appreciable results within a measurable time. Courage and
self-confidence are two beacons which must never be
extinguished on the path to higher knowledge. No one will ever
travel far who cannot bring himself to repeat, over and over
again, an exercise which has failed, apparently, for a
countless number of times.
Long
before any distinct perception of progress, there rises in the
student, from the hidden depths of the soul, a feeling that he
is on the right path. This feeling should be cherished and
fostered, for it can develop into a trustworthy guide. Above
all, it is imperative to extirpate the idea that any fantastic,
mysterious practices are required for the attainment of higher
knowledge. It must be clearly realized that a start has to be
made with the thoughts and feelings with which we continually
live, and that these feelings and thoughts must merely be given
a new direction. Everyone must say to himself: “In my
own world of thought and feeling the deepest mysteries lie
hidden, only hitherto I have been unable to perceive
them.” In the end it all resolves itself into the
fact that man ordinarily carries body, soul and spirit about
with him, and yet is conscious in a true sense only of his
body, and not of his soul and spirit. The student becomes
conscious of soul and spirit, just as the ordinary person is
conscious of his body. Hence it is highly important to give the
proper direction to thoughts and feelings, for then only can
the perception be developed of all that is invisible in
ordinary life. One of the ways by which this development may be
carried out will now be indicated. Again, like almost
everything else so far explained, it is quite a simple matter.
Yet its results are of the greatest consequence, if the
necessary devotion and sympathy be applied.
Let the
student place before himself the small seed of a plant, and
while contemplating this insignificant object, form with
intensity the right kind of thoughts, and through these
thoughts develop certain feelings. In the first place let him
clearly grasp what he really sees with his eyes. Let him
describe to himself the shape, color and all other qualities of
the seed. Then let his mind dwell upon the following train of
thought: “Out of the seed, if planted in the soil, a
plant of complex structure will grow.” Let him build up
this plant in his imagination, and reflect as follows:
“What I am now picturing to myself in my imagination
will later on be enticed from the seed by the forces of earth
and light. If I had before me an artificial object which
imitated the seed to such a deceptive degree that my eyes could
not distinguish it from a real seed, no forces of earth or
light could avail to produce from it a plant.” If the
student thoroughly grasps this thought so that it becomes an
inward experience, he will also be able to form the following
thought and couple it with the right feeling: “All
that will ultimately grow out of the seed is now secretly
enfolded within it as the force of the whole plant. In the
artificial imitation of the seed there is no such force
present. And yet both appear alike to my eyes. The real seed,
therefore, contains something invisible which is not present in
the imitation.” It is on this invisible something
that thought and feeling are to be concentrated. (Anyone
objecting that a microscopical examination would reveal the
difference between the real seed and the imitation would only
show that he had failed to grasp the point. The intention is
not to investigate the physical nature of the object, but to
use it for the development of psycho-spiritual forces.)
Let the
student fully realize that this invisible something will
transmute itself later on into a visible plant, which he will
have before him in its shape and color. Let him ponder on the
thought: “The invisible will become visible. If I
could not think, then that which will only become visible later
on could not already make its presence felt to me.”
Particular stress must be laid on the following point: what the
student thinks he must also feel with intensity. In inner
tranquility, the thought mentioned above must become a
conscious inner experience, to the exclusion of all other
thoughts and disturbances. And sufficient time must be taken to
allow the thought and the feeling which is coupled with it to
bore themselves into the soul, as it were. If this be
accomplished in the right way, then after a time —
possibly not until after numerous attempts — an inner
force will make itself felt. This force will create new powers
of perception. The grain of seed will appear as if enveloped in
a small luminous cloud. In a sensible-supersensible way, it
will be felt as a kind of flame. The center of this flame
evokes the same feeling that one has when under the impression
of the color lilac, and the edges as when under the impression
of a bluish tone. What was formerly invisible now becomes
visible, for it is created by the power of the thoughts and
feelings we have stirred to life within ourselves. The plant
itself will not become visible until later, so that the
physically invisible now reveals itself in a spiritually
visible way.
It is not
surprising that all this appears to many as illusion.
“What is the use of such visions,” they ask,
“and such hallucinations?” And many will thus fall
away and abandon the path. But this is precisely the important
point: not to confuse spiritual reality with imagination at
this difficult stage of human evolution, and further-more, to
have the courage to press onward and not become timorous and
faint-hearted. On the other hand, however, the necessity must
be emphasized of maintaining unimpaired and of perpetually
cultivating that healthy sound sense which distinguishes truth
from illusion. Fully conscious self-control must never be lost
during all these exercises, and they must be accompanied by the
same sane, sound thinking which is applied to the details of
every-day life. To lapse into reveries would be fatal. The
intellectual clarity, not to say the sobriety of thought, must
never for a moment be dulled. The greatest mistake would be
made if the student's mental balance were disturbed through
such exercises, if he were hampered in judging the matters of
his daily life as sanely and as soundly as before. He should
examine himself again and again to find out if he has remained
unaltered in relation to the circumstances among which he
lives, or whether he may perhaps have become unbalanced. Above
all, strict care must be taken not to drift at random into
vague reveries, or to experiment with all kinds of exercises.
The trains of thought here indicated have been tested and
practiced in esoteric training since the earliest times, and
only such are given in these pages. Anyone attempting to use
others devised by himself, or of which he may have heard or
read at one place or another, will inevitably go astray and
find himself on the path of boundless chimera.
As a
further exercise to succeed the one just described, the
following may be taken: Let the student place before him a
plant which has attained the stage of full development. Now let
him fill his mind with the thought that the time will come when
this plant will wither and die. “Nothing will be left
of what I now see before me. But this plant will have developed
seeds which, in their turn, will develop to new plants. I again
become aware that in what I see, something lies hidden which I
cannot see. I fill my mind entirely with the thought: this
plant with its form and colors, will in time be no more. But
the reflection that it produces seeds teaches me that it will
not disappear into nothing. I cannot at present see with my
eyes that which guards it from disappearance, any more than I
previously could discern the plant in the grain of seed. Thus
there is something in the plant which my eyes cannot see. If I
let this thought live within me, and if the corresponding
feeling be coupled with it, then, in due time, there will again
develop in my soul a force which will ripen into a new
perception.” Out of the plant there again grows a
kind of spiritual flame-form, which is, of course,
correspondingly larger than the one previously described. The
flame can be felt as being greenish-blue in the center, and
yellowish-red at the outer edge.
It must be
explicitly emphasized that the colors here described are not
seen as the physical eyes see colors, but that through
spiritual perception the same feeling is experienced as in the
case of a physical color-impression. To apprehend blue
spiritually means to have a sensation similar to the one
experienced when the physical eye rests on the color blue. This
fact must be noted by all who intend to rise to spiritual
perception. Otherwise they will expect a mere repetition of the
physical in the spiritual. This could only lead to the
bitterest deception.
Anyone
having reached this point of spiritual vision is the richer by
a great deal, for he can perceive things not only in their
present state of being but also in their process of growth and
decay. He begins to see in all things the spirit, of which
physical eyes can know nothing. And therewith he has taken the
first step toward the gradual solution, through personal
vision, of the secret of birth and death. For the outer senses
a being comes into existence through birth, and passes away
through death. This, however, is only because these senses
cannot perceive the concealed spirit of the being. For the
spirit, birth and death are merely a transformation, just as
the unfolding of the flower from the bud is a transformation
enacted before our physical eyes. But if we desire to learn
this through personal vision we must first awaken the requisite
spiritual sense in the way here indicated.
In order
to meet another objection, which may be raised by certain
people who have some psychic experience, let it at once be
admitted that there are shorter and simpler ways, and that
there are persons who have acquired knowledge of the phenomena
of birth and death through personal vision, without first going
through all that has here been described. There are, in fact,
people with considerable psychic gifts who need but a slight
impulse in order to find themselves already developed. But they
are the exceptions, and the methods described above are safer
and apply equally to all. It is possible to acquire some
knowledge of chemistry in an exceptional way, but if you wish
to become a chemist you must follow the recognized and reliable
course.
An error
fraught with serious consequences would ensue if it were
assumed that the desired result could be reached more easily if
the grain of seed or the plant mentioned above were merely
imagined, were merely pictured in the imagination. This might
lead to results, but not so surely as the method here. The
vision thus attained would, in most cases, be a mere fragment
of the imagination, the transformation of which into genuine
spiritual vision would still remain to be accomplished. It is
not intended arbitrarily to create visions, but to allow
reality to create them within oneself. The truth must well up
from the depths of our own soul; it must not be conjured forth
by our ordinary ego, but by the beings themselves whose
spiritual truth we are to contemplate.
Once the
student has found the beginnings of spiritual vision by means
of such exercises, he may proceed to the contemplation of man
himself. Simple phenomena of human life must first be chosen.
But before making any attempt in this direction it is
imperative for the student to strive for the absolute purity of
his moral character. He must banish all through of ever using
knowledge gained in this way for his own personal benefit. He
must be convinced that he would never, under any circumstances,
avail himself in an evil sense of any power he may gain over
his fellow-creatures. For this reason, all who seek to discover
through personal vision the secrets in human nature must follow
the golden rule of true spiritual science. This golden rule is
as follows: For every one
step that you take in the pursuit of higher knowledge, take
three steps in the perfection of your own character. If
this rule is observed, such exercise as the following may be
attempted:
Recall
to mind some person whom you may have observed when he was
filled with desire for some object. Direct your attention to
this desire. It is best to recall to memory that moment when
the desire was at its height, and it was still uncertain
whether the object of the desire would be attained. And now
fill your mind with this recollection, and reflect on what you
can thus observe. Maintain the utmost inner tranquility. Make
the greatest possible effort to be blind and deaf to everything
that may be going on around you, and take special heed that
through the conception thus evoked a feeling should awaken in
your soul. Allow this feeling to rise in your soul like a cloud
on the cloudless horizon. As a rule, of course, your
reflection will be interrupted, because the person whom it
concerns was not observed in this particular state of soul for
a sufficient length of time. The attempt will most likely fail
hundreds and hundreds of times. It is just a question of not
losing patience. After many attempts you will succeed in
experiencing a feeling In your soul corresponding to the state
of soul of the person observed, and you will begin to notice
that through this feeling a power grows in your soul that leads
to spiritual insight into the state of soul of the other. A
picture experienced as luminous appears in your field of
vision. This spiritually luminous picture is the so-called
astral embodiment of the desire observed in that soul. Again
the impression of this picture may be described as flame-like,
yellowish-red in the center, and reddish-blue or lilac at the
edges. Much depends on treating such spiritual experiences with
great delicacy. The best thing is not to speak to anyone about
them except to your teacher, if you have one. Attempted
descriptions of such experiences in inappropriate words usually
only lead to gross self-deception. Ordinary terms are employed
which are not intended for such things, and are therefore too
gross and clumsy. The consequence is that in the attempt to
clothe the experience in words we are misled into blending the
actual experience with all kinds of fantastic delusions. Here
again is another important rule for the student: know how to
observe silence concerning your spiritual experiences. Yes,
observe silence even toward yourself. Do not attempt to clothe
in words what you contemplate in the spirit, or to pore over it
with clumsy intellect. Lend yourself freely and without
reservation to these spiritual impressions, and do not disturb
them by reflecting and pondering over them too much. For you
must remember that your reasoning faculties are, to begin with,
by no means equal to your new experience. You have acquired
these reasoning faculties in a life hitherto confined to the
physical world of the senses; the faculties you are now
acquiring transcend this world. Do not try, therefore, to apply
to the new and higher perceptions the standard of the old. Only
he who has gained some certainty and steadiness in the
observation of inner experiences can speak about them, and
thereby stimulate his fellow-men.
The
exercise just described may be supplemented by the following:
Direct your attention in the same way upon a person to whom
the fulfillment of some wish, the gratification of some desire,
has been granted. If the same rules and precautions be
adopted as in the previous instance, spiritual insight will
once more be attained. A spiritual insight will once more be
attained. A spiritual flame-form will be distinguished,
creating an impression of yellow in the center and green at the
edges.
By such
observation of his fellow-creatures, the student may easily
lapse into a moral fault. He may become cold-hearted. Every
conceivable effort must be made to prevent this. Such
observation should only be practiced by one who has already
risen to the level on which complete certainty is found that
thoughts are real things. He will then no longer allow himself
to think of his fellow-men in a way that is incompatible with
the highest reverence for human dignity and human liberty. The
thought that a human being could be merely an object of
observation must never for a moment be entertained.
Self-education must see to it that this insight into human
nature should go hand in hand with an unlimited respect for the
personal privilege of each individual, and with the recognition
of the sacred and inviolable nature of that which dwells in
each human being. A feeling of reverential awe must fill us,
even in our recollections.
For the
present, only these two examples can be given to show how
enlightened insight into human nature may be achieved; they
will at least serve to point out the way to be taken. By
gaining the inner tranquility and repose indispensable for such
observation, the student will have undergone a great inner
transformation. He will then soon reach the point where this
enrichment of his inner self will lend confidence and composure
to his outward demeanor. And this transformation of his outward
demeanor will again react favorably on his soul. Thus he will
be able to help himself further along the road. He will find
ways and means of penetrating more and more into the secrets of
human nature which are hidden from our external senses, and he
will then also become ripe for a deeper insight into the
mysterious connections between human nature and all else that
exists in the universe. By following this path the student
approaches closer and closer to the moment when he can
effectively take the first steps of initiation. But before
these can be taken, one thing more is necessary, though at
first its need will be least of all apparent; later on,
however, the student will be convinced of it.
The
would-be initiate must bring with him a certain measure of
courage and fearlessness. He must positively go out of his way
to find opportunities for developing these virtues. His
training should provide for their systematic cultivation. In
this respect, life itself is a good school — possibly the
best school. The student must learn to look danger calmly in
the face and try to overcome difficulties unswervingly. For
instance, when in the presence of some peril, he must swiftly
come to the conviction that fear is of no possible use; I must
not feel afraid; I must only think of what is to be done. And
he must improve to the extent of feeling, upon occasions which
formerly inspired him with fear, that to be frightened, to be
disheartened, are things that are out of the question as far as
his own inmost self is concerned. By self-discipline in this
direction, quite definite qualities are developed which are
necessary for initiation into the higher mysteries. Just as man
requires nervous force in his physical being in order to use
his physical sense, so also he requires in his soul nature the
force which is only developed in the courageous and the
fearless. For in penetrating to the higher mysteries he will
see things which are concealed from ordinary humanity by the
illusion of the senses. If the physical senses do not allow us
to perceive the higher truth, they are for this very reason our
benefactors. Things are thereby hidden from us which, if
realized without due preparation, would throw us into
unutterable consternation, and the sight of which would be
unendurable. The student must be fit to endure this sight. He
loses certain supports in the outer world which he owes to the
very illusion surrounding him. It is truly and literally as if
the attention of someone were called to a danger which had
threatened him for a long time, but of which he knew nothing.
Hitherto he felt no fear, but now that he knows, he is overcome
by fear, though the danger has not been rendered greater by his
knowing it.
The forces
at work in the world are both destructive and constructive; the
destiny of manifested beings is birth and death. The seer is to
behold the working of these forces and the march of destiny.
The veil enshrouding the spiritual eyes in ordinary life is to
be removed. But man is interwoven with these forces and with
this destiny. His own nature harbors destructive and
constructive forces. His own soul reveals itself to the seer as
undisguised as the other objects. He must not lose strength in
the face of this self-knowledge; but strength will fail him
unless he brings a surplus on which to draw. For this purpose
he must learn to maintain inner calm and steadiness in the face
of difficult circumstances; he must cultivate a strong trust in
the beneficent powers of existence. He must be prepared to find
that many motives which had actuated him hitherto will do so no
longer. He will have to recognize that previously he thought
and acted in a certain way only because he was still in the
throes of ignorance. Reasons that influenced him formerly will
now disappear. He often acted out of vanity; he will now see
how utterly futile all vanity is for the seer. He often acted
out of greed; he will now become aware how destructive all
greed is. He will have to develop quite new motives for his
thoughts and actions, and it is just for this purpose that
courage and fearlessness are required.
It is
pre-eminently a question of cultivating this courage and this
fearlessness in the inmost depths of thought-life. The student
must learn never to despair over failure. He must be equal to
the thought: I shall forget that I have failed in this matter,
and I shall try once more as though this had not happened. Thus
he will struggle through to the firm conviction that the
fountain-head of strength from which he may draw is
inexhaustible. He struggles ever onward to the spirit which
will uplift him and support him, however weak and impotent his
earthly self may have proved. He must be capable of pressing on
to the future undismayed by any experiences of the past. If the
student has acquired these faculties up to a certain point, he
is then ripe to hear the real names of things, which are the
key to higher knowledge. For initiation consists in this very
act of learning to call the things of the world by those names
which they bear in the spirit of their divine authors. In
these, their names, lies the mystery of things. It is for this
reason that the initiates speak a different language from the
uninitiated, for the former know the names by which the beings
themselves are called into existence.
In as far
as initiation itself can be discussed, this will be done in the
following chapter.
Initiation is the highest stage in an esoteric training concerning
which it is possible to give some indications in a book intended for
the genuine public. Whatever lives beyond forms a subject difficult to
understand, yet the way to it can be found by all who have passed
through preparation, enlightenment, and initiation as
far as the lesser mysteries.
The knowledge and proficiency conferred by initiation cannot be
obtained in any other manner, except in some far distant future, after
many incarnations, by quite different means and in quite a different
form. The initiate of today undergoes experiences which would
otherwise come to him much later, under quite different circumstances.
The secrets of existence are only accessible to an extent
corresponding to man's own degree of maturity. For this reason alone
the path to the higher stages of knowledge and power is beset with
obstacles. A firearm should not be used until sufficient experience
has been gained to avoid disaster, caused by its use. A person
initiated today without further ado would lack the experience which he
will gain during his future incarnations before he can attain to
higher knowledge in the normal course of his development. At the
portal of initiation, therefore, this experience must be supplied in
some other way. Thus the first instructions given to the candidate for
initiation serve as a substitute for these future experiences. These
are the so-called trials, which he has to undergo, and which
constitute a normal course of inner development resulting from due
application to such exercises as are described in the preceding
chapters.
These trials are often discussed in books, but it is only natural that
such discussions should as a rule give quite false impressions of
their nature; for without passing through preparation and
enlightenment no one can know anything of these tests and
appropriately describe them.
The would-be initiate must come into contact with certain things and
facts belonging to the higher worlds, but he can only see and hear
them if his feeling is ripe for the perception of the spiritual forms,
colors and tones described in the chapters on Preparation and
Enlightenment.
The first trial consists in obtaining a truer vision than the average
man has of the corporeal attributes of lifeless things, and later of
plants, animals and human beings. This does not mean what at present
is called scientific knowledge, for it is a question not of science
but of vision. As a rule, the would-be initiate proceeds to learn how
the objects of nature and the beings gifted with life manifest
themselves to the spiritual ear and the spiritual eye. In a certain
way these things then lie stripped — naked — before the
beholder. The qualities which can then be seen and heard are hidden
from the physical eyes and ears. For physical perception they are
concealed as if by a veil, and the falling away of this veil for the
would-be initiate consists in a process designated as the process of
Purification by Fire. The first trial is therefore known as the
Fire-Trial.
For many people, ordinary life is itself a more or less unconscious
process of initiation through the Fire-Trial. Such people have passed
through a wealth of experience, so that their self-confidence, courage
and fortitude have been greatly strengthened in a normal manner while
learning to bear sorrow, disappointment and failure in their
undertakings with greatness of soul, and especially with equanimity
and unbroken strength. Thus they are often initiates without knowing
it, and it then needs but little to unseal their spiritual hearing and
sight so that they become clairvoyant. For it must be noted that a
genuine fire-trial is not intended to satisfy the curiosity of the
candidate. It is true that he learns many uncommon things of which
others can have no inkling, but this acquisition of knowledge is not
the end, but the means to the end; the end consists in the attainment,
thanks to this knowledge of the higher worlds, of greater and truer
self-confidence, a higher degree of courage, and a magnanimity and
perseverance such as cannot, as a rule, be acquired in the lower
world.
The candidate may always turn back after the fire-trial. He will then
resume his life, strengthened in body and soul, and wait for a future
incarnation to continue his initiation. In his present incarnation he
will prove himself a more useful member of society and of humanity
than he was before. In whatever position he may find himself, his
firmness, prudence, resoluteness, and his beneficent influence over
his fellows will have greatly increased.
But if, after completing the fire-trial, he should wish to continue
the path, a certain writing-system generally adopted in esoteric
training must now be revealed to him. The actual teachings manifest
themselves in this writing, because the hidden (occult) qualities of
things cannot be directly expressed in the words of ordinary writing.
The pupils of the initiates translate the teachings into ordinary
language as best they can. The occult script reveals itself to the
soul when the latter has attained spiritual perception, for it is
traced in the spiritual world and remains there for all time. It
cannot be learned as an artificial writing is learned and read. The
candidate grows into clairvoyant knowledge in an appropriate way, and
during this growth a new strength is developed in his soul, as a new
faculty, through which he feels himself impelled to decipher the
occurrences and the beings of the spiritual world like the characters
of a writing. This strength, with the experience it brings of the
corresponding trial, might possibly awaken in the soul as though of
its own accord, as the soul continually develops, but it will be found
safer to follow the instructions of those who are spiritually
experienced, and who have some proficiency in deciphering the occult
script.
The signs of the occult script are not arbitrarily invented; they
correspond to the forces actively engaged in the world. They teach us
the language of things. It becomes immediately apparent to the
candidate that the signs he is now learning correspond to the forms,
colors, and tones which he learned to perceive during his preparation
and enlightenment. He realizes that all he learned previously was only
like learning to spell, and that he is only now beginning to read in
the higher worlds. All the isolated figures, tones, and colors reveal
themselves to him now in one great connected whole. Now for the first
time he attains complete certainty in observing the higher worlds.
Hitherto he could never know positively whether the things he saw were
rightly seen. A regular understanding, too, is now at last possible
between the candidate and the initiate in the spheres of higher
knowledge. For whatever form the intercourse between an initiate and
another person may take in ordinary life, the higher knowledge in its
immediate form can only be imparted by the initiate in the
above-mentioned sign-language.
Thanks to this language the student also learns certain rules of
conduct and certain duties of which he formerly knew nothing. Having
learned these he is able to perform actions endowed with a
significance and a meaning such as the actions of one not initiated
can never possess. He acts out of the higher worlds. Instructions
concerning such action can only be read and understood in the writing
in question.
Yet it must be emphasized that there are people unconsciously gifted
with the ability and faculty of performing such actions, though they
have never undergone an esoteric training. Such helpers of the world
and of humanity pass through life bestowing blessings and performing
good deeds. For reasons here not to be discussed, gifts have been
bestowed on them which appear supernatural. What distinguishes them
from the candidate for initiation is only that the latter acts
consciously and with full insight into the entire situation. He
acquires by training the gifts bestowed on others by higher powers for
the good of humanity. We can sincerely revere these favored of God;
but we should not for this reason regard the work of esoteric training
as superfluous.
Once the student has learned the sign-language there awaits him yet
another trial, to prove whether he can move with freedom and assurance
in the higher worlds. In ordinary life he is impelled to action by
exterior motives. He works at one occupation or another because one
duty or another is imposed on him by outward circumstances. It need
hardly be mentioned that the student must in no way neglect any of his
duties in ordinary life because he is living and working in higher
worlds. There is no duty in a higher world that can force a person to
neglect any single one of his duties in the ordinary world. The father
will remain just as good a father to his family, the mother just as
good a mother, and neither the official nor the soldier, nor anyone
else will be diverted from his work by becoming an esoteric student.
On the contrary, all the qualities which make a human being capable
and efficient are enhanced in the student to a degree incomprehensible
to the uninitiated. If, in the eyes of the uninitiated, this does not
always appear to be the case, it is simply because he often lacks the
ability to judge the initiate correctly. The deeds of the latter are
not always intelligible to the former. But this only happens in
special cases.
At this stage of initiation there are duties to be performed for which
no outward stimulus is given. The candidate will not be moved to
action by external pressure, but only through adherence to the rules
of conduct revealed to him in the occult script. He must now show in
this second trial that, led by such rules, he can act with the same
firmness and precision with which, for instance, an official performs
the duties that belong to him. For this purpose, and in the course of
his further training, he will find himself faced by a certain definite
task. He must perform some action in consequence of observations made
on the basis of what he has learned during preparation and
enlightenment. The nature of this action can be understood by means of
the occult script with which he is now familiar. If he recognizes his
duty and acts rightly, his trial has been successful. The success can
be recognized in the alteration produced by his action in the figures,
colors, and tones apprehended by his spiritual eyes and ears. Exact
indications are given, as the training progresses, showing how these
figures appear and are experienced after the action has been
performed, and the candidate must know how to produce this change.
This trial is known as the Water-Trial, because in his activity
in these higher worlds the candidate is deprived of the support
derived from outward circumstances, as a swimmer is without support
when swimming in water that is beyond his depth. This activity must be
repeated until the candidate attains absolute poise and assurance.
The importance of this trial lies again in the acquisition of a
quality. Through his experiences in the higher worlds, the candidate
develops this quality in a short time to such a high degree that he
would otherwise have to go through many incarnations, in the ordinary
course of his development, before he could acquire it to the same
extent. It all centers around the fact that he must be guided only by
the results of his higher perception and reading of the occult script,
in order to produce the changes in question in these higher regions of
existence. Should he, in the course of his activity, introduce any of
his own opinions and desires, or should he diverge for one moment from
the laws which he has recognized to be right, in order to follow his
own willful inclination, then the result produced would differ
entirely from what was intended. He would lose sight of the goal to
which his action tended, and confusion would result. Hence ample
opportunity is given him in the course of this trial to develop
self-control. This is the object in view. Here again, this trial can
be more easily passed by those whose life, before initiation, has led
them to acquire self-control. Anyone having acquired the faculty of
following high principles and ideals, while putting into the
background all personal predilection; anyone capable of always
performing his duty, even though inclinations and sympathies would
like to seduce him from this duty — such a person is
unconsciously an initiate in the midst of ordinary life. He will need
but little to succeed in this particular trial. Indeed, a certain
measure of initiation thus unconsciously acquired in life will, as a
rule, be indispensable for success in this second trial. For even as
it is difficult for those who have not learned to spell correctly in
their childhood to make good this deficiency when fully grown up, so
too it is difficult to develop the necessary degree of self-control at
the moment of looking into the higher worlds, if this ability has not
been acquired to a certain degree in ordinary life. The objects of the
physical world do not alter, whatever the nature of our wishes,
desires, and inclinations. In the higher worlds, however, our wishes,
desires, and inclinations are causes that produce effects. If we wish
to produce a particular effect in these worlds, we must strictly
follow the right rules and subdue every arbitrary impulse.
One human quality is of very special importance at this stage of
initiation, namely, an unquestionably sound judgment. Attention
should be paid to the training of this faculty during all the previous
stages; for it now remains to be proved whether the candidate is
shaping in a way that shows him to be fit for the truth path of
knowledge. Further progress is now only possible if he is able to
distinguish illusion, superstition, and everything fantastic, from
true reality. This is, at first, more difficult to accomplish in the
higher stages of existence than in the lower. Every prejudice, every
cherished opinion with regard to the things in question, must vanish;
truth alone must guide. There must be perfect readiness to abandon at
once any idea, opinion, or inclination when logical thought demands
it. Certainty in higher worlds is only likely to be attained when
personal opinion is never considered.
People whose mode of thought tends to fancifulness and superstition
can never make progress on the path to higher knowledge. It is indeed
a precious treasure that the student is to acquire. All doubt
regarding the higher worlds is removed from him. With all their laws
they reveal themselves to his gaze. But he cannot acquire this
treasure so long as he is the prey of fancies and illusions. It would
indeed be fatal if his imagination and his prejudices ran away with
his intellect. Dreamers and fantastical people are as unfit for the
path to higher knowledge as superstitious people. This cannot be
over-emphasized. For the most dangerous enemies on the way to
knowledge of the higher worlds lurk in such fantastical reveries and
superstitions. Yet no one need to believe that the student loses all
sense of poetry in life, all power of enthusiasm because the words:
You must be rid of all prejudice, are written over the portal
leading to the second trial of initiation, and because over the portal
at the entrance to the first trial he read: Without normal common
sense all thine efforts are in vain.
If the candidate is in this way sufficiently advanced, a third trial
awaits him. He finds here no definite goal to be reached. All is left
in his own hands. He finds himself in a situation where nothing impels
him to act. He must find his way all alone and out of himself. Things
or people to stimulate him to action are non-existent. Nothing and
nobody can give him the strength he needs but he himself alone.
Failure to find this inner strength will leave him standing where he
was. Few of those, however, who have successfully passed the previous
trials will fail to find the necessary strength at this point. Either
they will have turned back already or they succeed at this point also.
All that the candidate requires is the ability to come quickly to
terms with himself, for he must here find his higher self in
the truest sense of the word. He must rapidly decide in all things to
listen to the inspiration of the spirit. There is no time for doubt or
hesitation. Every moment of hesitation would prove that he was still
unfit. Whatever prevents him from listening to the voice of the spirit
must be courageously overcome. It is a question of showing presence of
mind in this situation, and the training at this stage is concerned
with the perfect development of this quality. All the accustomed
inducements to act or even to think now cease. In order not to remain
inactive he must not lose himself, for only within himself can he find
the one central point of vantage where he can gain a firm hold. No one
on reading this, without further acquaintance with these matters,
should feel an antipathy for this principle of being thrown back on
oneself, for success in this trial brings with it a moment of supreme
happiness.
At this stage, no less than at the others, ordinary life is itself an
esoteric training for many. For anyone having reached the point of
being able, when suddenly confronted with some task or problem in
life, to come to a swift decision without hesitation or delay, for him
life itself has been a training in this sense. Such situations are
here meant in which success is instantly lost if action is not rapid.
A person who is quick to act when a misfortune is imminent, whereas a
few moments of hesitation would have seen the misfortune an
accomplished fact, and who has turned this ability into a permanent
personal quality, has unconsciously acquired the degree of maturity
necessary for the third trial. For at this stage everything centers
round the development of absolute presence of mind. This trial is
known as the Air-Trial, because while undergoing it the
candidate can support himself neither upon the firm basis of external
incentive nor upon the figures, tones, and colors which he has learned
at the stages of preparation and enlightenment, but
exclusively upon himself.
Upon successfully passing this trial the student is permitted to enter
the temple of higher wisdom. All that is here said on this
subject can only be the slenderest allusion. The task now to be
performed is often expressed in the statement that the student must
take an oath never to betray anything he has learned. These
expressions, however, oath and betray, are
inappropriate and actually misleading. There is no question of an oath
in the ordinary sense of the word, but rather of an experience that
comes at this stage of development. The candidate learns how to apply
the higher knowledge, how to place it at the service of humanity. He
then begins really and truly to understand the world. It is not so
much a question of withholding the higher truths, but far more of
serving them in the right way and with the necessary tact. The silence
he is to keep refers to something quite different. He acquires this
fine quality with regard to things he had previously spoken, and
especially with regard to the manner in which they were spoken. He
would be a poor initiate who did not place all the higher knowledge he
had acquired at the service of humanity, as well and as far as this is
possible. The only obstacle to giving information in these matters is
the lack of understanding on the part of the recipients. It is true,
of course, that the higher knowledge does not lend itself to
promiscuous talk; but no one having reached the stage of development
described above is actually forbidden to say anything. No other
person, no being exacts an oath from him with this intent. Everything
is left to his own responsibility, and he learns in every situation to
discover within himself what he has to do, and an oath means nothing
more than that he has been found qualified to be entrusted with such a
responsibility.
If the candidate is found fit for the foregoing experiences, he is
then given what is called symbolically the draught of
forgetfulness. This means that he is initiated into the secret
knowledge that enables him to act without being continually disturbed
by the lower memory. This is necessary for the initiate, for he must
have full faith in the immediate present. He must be able to destroy
the veil of memory which envelops man every moment of his life. If we
judge something that happens to us today according to the experience
of yesterday, we are exposed to a multitude of errors. Of course this
does not mean that experience gained in life should be renounced. It
should always be kept in mind as clearly as possible. But the initiate
must have the ability to judge every new experience wholly according
to what is inherent in it, and let it react upon him, unobscurred by
the past. We must be prepared at every moment that every object and
every being can bring to us some new revelation. If we judge the new
by the standard of the old we are liable to error. The memory of past
experiences will be of greatest use for the very reason that it
enables us to perceive the new. Had we not gone through a definite
experience we should perhaps be blind to the qualities of the object
or being that comes before us. Thus experience should serve the
purpose of perceiving the new and not of judging it by the standard of
the old. In this respect the initiate acquires certain definite
qualities, and thereby many things are revealed to him which remain
concealed from the uninitiated.
The second draught presented to the initiate is the draught of
remembrance. Through its agency he acquires the faculty of
retaining the knowledge of the higher truths ever present in his soul.
Ordinary memory would be unequal to this task. We must unite ourselves
and become as one with the higher truths.
We must not only know them, but be able, quite as a matter of course,
to manifest and administer them in living actions, even as we
ordinarily eat and drink. They must become our practice, our habit,
our inclination. There must be no need to keep thinking about them in
the ordinary sense; they must come to living expression through man
himself; they must flow through him as the functions of life through
his organism. Thus doth man ever raise himself, in a spiritual
sense, to that same stature to which nature raised him in a physical
sense.
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