EL,
Leipzig, 12-30-'13
There would
be no esotericism if the view that medieval soul investigators had
and that is shared by modern psychologists were correct. Back
then they said: Everything that goes on in the soul is intentional,
that is, a particular intention underlies all soul processes; when I
think, then my thinking has a particular content, I have to think
something; when I feel, hope, imagine, will then I must feel, hope,
imagine or will something. Medieval soul investigators expressed this
much more clearly than modern psychologists, for our age is the age
of fuzzy concepts. If this medieval view were correct no esoteric
thinking would be possible, for an esoteric wants to remove this
something from his soul also and make it completely empty, so that
divine thinking can then stream into his soul. In a way this is also
not produced by our exercises, for in them we concentrate on
particular words, pictures, etc. that are given us by occult
teachers. That is, on something that isn't taken from the sense
world. Our soul becomes prepared to receive divine existence
when it has matured through these exercises.
What's
the purpose of this concentrated thinking? To divert us from the
material thoughts that whiz around us and to get us to rest in a
particular thought content. We must get to the point of ignoring a
particular object of our thinking, of freeing ourselves
completely from it and of developing the forces that are
necessary for thinking. Medieval soul investigators knew that quite
well, but they obeyed a rule that's still followed by many people and
that's become a basic principle in all cognitional theory today. They
said that it's very difficult to attain thinking, feeling and willing
that is devoid of intentions, and that what's difficult is impossible
for men. That's how all these ideas about limits to cognitional
capacity came into philosophy.
Of course
it isn't easy for an esoteric to remove all thinking, feeling and willing
content from his soul during meditation and to only develop forces.
He'll only attain this through steady, strenuous meditation. A
meditator is really in the same position as a sleeping man, except
that he keeps himself conscious.
For what
happens in sleep? The astral body and ego leave the body, and the
physical and etheric bodies remain lying on their resting place, but
as I've often mentioned this is only correct to a certain
extent. Just as the sun only sets for one part of the globe and
arises anew for the other half, so only one part of the physical body
rests. The sun of the astral body and ego begins to unfold its
activity in the other part. For the astral body and ego are withdrawn
from the nervous and blood systems, but they begin to work on the
senses and glands during sleep. Many of you have gone to sleep in a
room that's not very warm and have then felt cold on awaking. That's
because the astral body and ego aren't in your blood and
nervous system during sleep. It may seem strange, but senses are
awake the most during sleep. For instance, while our eyes are closed
at night the forces of the ego and astral body work into them.
Whereas our eyes are really sleeping during the day when we're awake.
A man wouldn't be able to use them if they weren't asleep. The fact
is that the sun of the astral body and ego rises at night on the
hemisphere of the sense and glandular systems. One who wakes up
consciously in sleep can experience the light that works on eyes and
the building up of senses that must stop in daytime so that a man can
see. Such a man can see the image of an angel who's floating towards
him when the lens expands and contracts again. If he could expand his
gaze he would see an angel fighting with a demon, projected out
of him. This imagination arises because in sleep the blood is taking
care of the eyes. For generations of archangels and Gods have worked
on the human eye. When one makes this clear to oneself one will also
feel how irreverently physiologists are probing into what was
created over a very long time by hierarchies of divine beings.
When a
meditator looks at himself from outside he can have the feeling of a
space that's filled with warmth only, like an oven. What lives in
there is what weaves in a man's own soul life. We must feel the
warmth ether that fills and surrounds the physical body. This takes a
lot of attentiveness. Inexperienced esoterics won't notice this
ether, they notice something quite different, namely, thoughts that
storm in on them, often long forgotten images, feelings and worries
press in on them. Then they come and complain. A more
experienced esoteric can say: I congratulate you on the
progress that you're making now.
This fits in
with the word in John's Gospel, “And the light shone into the
darkness, but the darkness comprehended it not.” For this
warmth that's in us is darkness. Light wants to press in from
outside, but it can't, because there's a battle going on
between two kinds of warmth. It's hard for a man to see that there
are two kinds of warmth. Once when a thunder storm was approaching an
old shepherd told me: Those are two weathers that are
gathering against each other. Modern physicists speak
abstractly of positive and negative electricity, but that's as
far as it goes. The old shepherd still felt and knew out of the
depths of his soul that when a thunderstorm comes up two powers are
fighting each other, that a battle is taking place there.
A modern
isn't aware of two kinds of warmth anymore. It's easier for him to
imagine that there are two kinds of light: the inner luciferic light
and the outer divine light that he sees coming towards him in
meditation. But aside from man's warmth that's luciferic there's
another warmth that can irradiate him from outside, but which
he'll feel to be cold in meditation to begin with. In meditation it's
a good sign to feel breathed on by cold, which is warmth in spiritual
worlds. If we focus on this cold we feel our own warmth like a sphere
around and in us. We seem to go through a fiery oven in which
everything luciferic is burned, and yet this fire of divine
wrath — which is really love — is felt to be cold that's
breathing on us. Once one has become aware of this happening one
tells oneself: Thank God that I'm punished and tortured and have to
experience God's wrath that burns up the things in me that shouldn't
be in me any more.
Then warmth
that's initially felt to be cold comes to us from outside. and
this comes with light — which is also from Lucifer, but from
Lucifer's good side. Spirits in the good hierarchies use Lucifer to
let this light radiate into us.
Thereby we
can arrive at a soul life that's not intentional, at a spiritual world
that's not just a continuation of the physical one, but a quite
different one. The rose cross can be a symbol of this for us.
People often
say: The rose cross remains a mere symbol for me. But that's their
own fault. The feelings with which a man should permeate himself so
that the red rose cross becomes a live force and not just a symbol
were already indicated in
Occult Science.
We can also convert what
was said today into a feeling: We're born from God. But since
Lucifer mixed himself into creation the cross's wood must
become burnt charcoal and black.
In ... morimur. If we've died in Christ
like this then the world forces, the forces of the seven red heavenly
roses that radiate into us as light and warmth can approach us
from outside from the seven planets.
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