(aka: Past, Present, and Future)
January 30, 1916
To
continue last week's study I shall begin with a kind of
hypothetical case. Where the deepest riddles of human
existence are concerned the best way to avoid abstraction
and to get close to reality is to give examples. My example
will of course apply to every possible level of life. So let us
begin with a hypothetical example.
Let
us imagine we are in a school, a school of three classes, with
three teachers and a headmaster. These three teachers differ
tremendously in character and temperament. It is the
beginning of a new school year. The headmaster discusses the
coming year with his teachers. First of all it is the
turn of the first teacher. The headmaster asks him what
preparations he intends to make and what he thinks is the best
way to proceed in the coming year. The teacher replies,
“Well, during the holidays I noted down carefully all the
areas where the pupils did not meet my expectations, areas that
I had obviously not prepared well. And I have drawn up a new
plan for next year containing all the things which I am sure
were successful and got across to the children. All the work I
will give them next year consists of the things that came off
best last year and have proved successful.” A further
question from the headmaster produced a complete schedule the
teacher had made of the subject matter. He could also stipulate
what work he would give the pupils to do in school and what
would be set as homework in the course of the year. All his
themes, both for schoolwork and homework, had been chosen from
careful scanning of the previous year. The headmaster was very
satisfied and said “You are doubtless a conscientious
teacher, and I reckon you will achieve excellent results with
your class.”
The
second teacher also said, “I have gone through the whole
curriculum I covered with my pupils last year and noted
everything I did wrong. I have arranged the new schedule
avoiding all the mistakes I made before.” And he, too,
was able to show the headmaster a curriculum containing
all the subjects he was going to give the pupils for schoolwork
and homework in the course of the year, basing it on the
experience of his last year's mistakes. The headmaster said,
“The teacher I have just spoken to noted all the
instances where he had achieved excellence, and tried to plan
his curriculum accordingly, whereas you have endeavored to
avoid mistakes. It can be done either way. I am assured that
you will achieve excellent results with your class. I see with
a certain satisfaction that I have teachers in my school who
review their past achievements and let the wisdom of
self-knowledge guide their future steps.” You see, a
teacher who knows his priorities is bound to make a good
impression on a headmaster.
Then it was the third teacher's turn. He said, “During
the holidays I, too, have thought a lot about what
happened in my class last year. I have tried to study the
character of my pupils and have done a kind of review of what
has taken place in the various individuals.”
“Well,” said the headmaster, “you will also
have seen the mistakes you made and the things you did well,
and will have been able to draw up a schedule for the
coming year.” “No,” replied the
teacher. “I have certainly made mistakes; and some things
I have done well. But I have only studied the pupils'
characters and what has taken place there. I have not thought
especially about whether I made any particular mistakes, or
whether this or that was particularly good. I did not do that.
I accepted that things had to happen the way they did. So
I have just observed what I believe had to happen out of a
certain necessity. The pupils had their various
dispositions, and these I observed carefully. I too have
a definite disposition, and the interaction of our different
natures produced its own results. I cannot say more than
that.”
“Well,” said the headmaster, “you seem to be
a very self-satisfied person. Have you at least drawn up a
schedule, and worked out the subjects you will give your pupils
as schoolwork and homework during the year?”
“No,” he answered, “I have not done
that.” “Well, what do you intend to do with your
class?” To this the teacher replied, “I will see
what kinds of pupils I will have this year. And I believe I
will be able to size this up better than last year, as each
year I have always studied the previous year's characters
during the holidays. But I cannot possibly know yet what
they will be like next year. Only time will tell.”
“Well, are you not intending to plan subjects for
schoolwork and homework?” “Yes, but not until
I have seen what my pupils' capacities are like. I will try to
set the work accordingly.” “Well,
really,” said the headmaster, “we would be
thoroughly at sea in that case. We can hardly allow such things
to happen.”
But
there was nothing to be done. The headmaster had to agree to
it, and the school year got under way. The headmaster inspected
the school frequently. He saw the first two teachers doing
exceedingly well, but with the third he always found that
things were not on a good footing. There was no certainty, he
said, one never really knew what would happen the following
month. And it went on like this throughout the year. Then came
the time for the report cards. From those of the first two
teachers the headmaster was satisfied that they had been very
successful. Of course, some of the pupils in their classes
failed too, and others passed, but it all happened as expected.
According to the report cards, the third teacher's results were
no worse. Yet other people had come to the conclusion over the
year that he was very lenient. While the other teachers were
strict, he was so lenient that he frequently made
allowances, and the headmaster was convinced that the
third teacher's class had come out the worst.
Then the next year came. The holidays were over, and at the
start of the school year the first two teachers spoke as
before, and the third, too. Things happened similarly, with the
school inspector also coming occasionally, and, of
course, he noticed what the headmaster had as it were
prepared him to see, namely that the first two teachers were
very good, and the third only second-rate. It could not be
otherwise. I hardly need mention that after a few years the two
good teachers were nominated for decorations, and the
headmaster received an even higher one. That is a matter of
secondary importance, isn't it?
Some time later the following thing happened. The headmaster
left the school and another came at the beginning of the
year. He also discussed with his three teachers what their
plans were, and so on, and each of the teachers answered in a
similar way as before. Then the headmaster said, “There
is certainly quite a difference between your methods. And
I believe the first two gentlemen ought to take a little
guidance from the third teacher.” “What!”
said the first two gentlemen. “The previous headmaster
always said that he ought to take guidance from us!”
“I do not think so,” said the new head. “It
seems to me that the first two should adapt to the
third.” But they could not very well emulate him, for
they could not see how anyone could possibly foresee what
would happen in the coming year if he groped about as blindly
as that teacher did. They just could not imagine it.
In
the meantime the former headmaster, because of his insight into
proper school administration, had himself become a school
inspector, and was most astonished at the views his
successor was expressing about the school he knew so well. How
could such a thing happen? And he said, “The third
teacher never told me anything except ‘I must first see what
the pupils are like, then I can form my schedule from week to
week.’ But that way you cannot look ahead at all! It is quite
impossible to manage if you cannot anticipate a single
thing.” To which the present headmaster replied,
“Yes, but look, I have actually asked my teachers about
their different ways of looking ahead. The first two
gentlemen always say 'I know for certain that on February
25 next year I will present such and such items of school-work.
I can say in detail what will be happening, and I know for
certain that I will be talking about such and such a subject at
Easter.' The third teacher says 'I do not know for certain what
I will be doing at Easter, nor do I know what schoolwork I will
set in February. I will set the work according to the kind of
pupils I have.' And by that he meant that he can in a certain
way foresee that all will be well. And,” said the new
headmaster, “I actually agree with him entirely. You
cannot know until afterwards whether your resolves have been
entirely successful. It depends on the attitude you have to the
previous year; if you study the character of last year's
pupils, you acquire greater capacities to understand the
character of the new pupils. I appreciate that more can be
achieved this way.”
“Yes, but you still cannot know anything in advance!
Everything is in the realm of uncertainty. How can you
predetermine anything for the whole school year?” asked
the former headmaster. “You cannot anticipate anything.
But you must be able to look ahead a little bit, if you want to
make proper plans.” “You can foresee that
things will go well,” said the new headmaster, “if
you join forces as it were with the spirit at work in the
pupils, and have a certain faith in it. If you, so to speak,
pledge yourself to this and depend upon it, then even if you
cannot anticipate the school work you will be presenting in
February, you will know that it will be the right work.”
“Yes, but you cannot foresee anything with certainty, and
everything remains vague,” said the school inspector, to
which the new headmaster replied, “You know, I once
studied the sort of thing people call spiritual science. And I
still remember from this that beings on a much higher level
than human beings are actually supposed to have acted in this
way in much more important affairs. For at the beginning of the
Bible it says 'And God made light.' And only after he made the
light does it say 'And he saw that it was good.'“ To this
the inspector had nothing suitable to say.
Things continued in the same way for a time. There are few
headmasters like the second one I chose as a hypothetical
example, aren't there? I could call him hypothetical to
the second degree, for even with it being a hypothesis it is
hypothetical to assume a headmaster like that. Therefore he was
dismissed very soon, and another one more like the inspector
was appointed. And things ran their course until one day it
went so far that the completely “undecorated”
teacher was driven away from the school in disgrace and another
of the same style as the first two was appointed in his place.
The outcome could not possibly have been any different at the
time, for in all the yearbooks and personnel files it was
recorded what great progress had been achieved by the first two
teachers, while of the third one it was recorded that he sent
out only poor students from the school for the simple reason
that he made allowances; otherwise all his pupils would have
failed. There was absolutely nothing that could be done about a
person like this third teacher.
Many years passed. By chance a very unusual event followed. The
headmaster who had been dismissed tried to go more deeply into
how matters had turned out with the two teachers who had always
practiced strict self-observation, for example, with the one
who noted the subjects that yielded fewer successes and
selected the more successful ones. The former headmaster
also wanted to know what the second and the third teachers had
achieved. He even followed up what their pupils had achieved
under other teachers, and he discovered that with
different teachers the third teacher's pupils made much less
progress than those of the first two. But the former headmaster
did not stop there. He went even further into the matter and
traced the subsequent life of the former pupils of these
teachers. He then discovered that those taught by the first two
teachers, with a few exceptions naturally, had all become
respectable citizens, yet they had achieved nothing
outstanding. Among the pupils taught by the third
teacher, however, were people of considerable importance, who
accomplished things of far greater significance than the pupils
of the others.
He
was able to prove these things in this particular case. But it
made no special impression on people, for they said, “We
cannot always wait to follow up the pupils' whole subsequent
lives! That is impossible, isn't it? And that is not the point,
anyway.”
Now
why am I telling you all this? There is an important
difference between the first two teachers and the third.
Throughout the holidays, the first two teachers kept focusing
their attention on the way they had done their work the
previous year. The third teacher did not do this, for he had
the feeling that it had to happen as it did. When the
headmaster, the first one, kept telling him again and again,
“But you won't have any idea how to avoid mistakes next
year, or how to do the right thing, if you don't study what you
did well last year,” he did not answer immediately, for
he did not feel like explaining this to him. But afterwards he
thought to himself, “Well, even if I did know what
mistakes happened in the course of the work my pupils and
I did together, I will after all have different pupils this
year, and our working together is not affected by the mistakes
made last year. I have to work with new pupils.”
In
short, the first two teachers were wholly entrenched in a
dead element, while the third teacher entered into what
was alive. You could also say that the first two teachers
always dealt with the past, the third teacher with the
immediate present. He did not brood over the past, but said,
“Of necessity it had to happen as it did according to the
conditions that prevailed.”
The
point is that if things are judged in a superficial way
according to external judgments, one can indeed go astray where
actual facts are concerned. Because if you were to do things
the way the first teachers did them you would be judging the
present according to what is dead and gone and what ought to be
allowed to remain so. The third teacher took what was still
alive from the past, arriving at it by simply studying
character, and made himself more perfect by doing so; in
fact, he did it with this in view. For he told himself,
“If I can make myself more efficient in this way, the
greater capacities I thus acquire will help me achieve what I
have to do in the future.”
The
first two teachers were somewhat superstitious about the past
and told themselves, “Past mistakes must be avoided in
the future and evident good qualities must be
used.” But they did this in a dead way. They had no
intention of enhancing their abilities but only of making their
decisions according to outer observation. They did not
have the wish to be effective as a result of working in a
living way on themselves; they thought the only means to gain
anything for the future was observation and its results.
In
accordance with spiritual science we have to say that the first
teacher, who investigated so carefully the good qualities he
had established in the past and wanted to incorporate them in
his future work, acted in an ahrimanic way. It was an ahrimanic
approach. He clung to the past, and out of personal egotism
looked with complacent satisfaction at everything he had done
well and prided himself on it.
The
second teacher's character was governed more by luciferic
forces. He brooded over his mistakes and told himself, “I
must avoid these mistakes.” He did not say, “The
things that happened were necessary, and had to happen like
that,” but said, “I have made
mistakes.” There is always something egotistic
about it when we would like to have been better than we
actually were, and tell ourselves we made mistakes that
ought to have been avoided and that we must now avoid. We are
clinging to the past, like Lucifer does, who, on a spiritual
level, brings past happenings into the present. That is
thinking in a luciferic way.
The
third teacher was, I would say, filled with the forces of
divine beings who are progressing in a normal way, whose
correct divine principle is expressed right at the beginning of
the Bible, where we are told that the Elohim first of all
create and then they see that their creation was good. They do
not look upon it egotistically as though they were
superior beings for having made a good creation, but they admit
that it is good in order to continue creating. They incorporate
it into their evolution. They live and work in the element of
life.
What is important is that we realize that we ourselves are
living beings and a part of a living world. If we realize this,
we will not criticize the gods, the Elohim, for instance. For
anyone wishing to set his own wisdom above that of the gods
might say, “If gods are supposed to be gods, could they
not see that the light would be good? Those gods do not even
sound like prophets to me. If I were a god, I would of course
only create light if I knew beforehand what light was like, and
did not have to wait till later to see that it was good.”
But that is human wisdom being placed above divine wisdom.
In
a certain way the third teacher also saw what would come about,
but he saw it in a living way in that he surrendered himself to
the spirit of becoming, the spirit of development. When he
said, “By incorporating what I have gained through the
study of last year's characters and not focusing on the
mistakes I made of necessity, simply because I was as I was,
nor applying criticism to what I encountered as my own past, I
have enhanced my capacities and acquired in addition a
better understanding for my new pupils.” And he
realized that the first two teachers were considering their
pupils merely in the light of what they had done the previous
year, which they could not even estimate properly. So he could
say, “I am quite certain I will give my pupils the right
schoolwork in four weeks time, and I have every confidence in
my prediction.”
The
others were better prophets. They could actually say “I
will present the schoolwork I have written down; I will give
them that for sure.” But that was a foreseeing of facts,
not a foreseeing of the course of the forces of movement. We
must hold very firmly to this distinction. Prediction as
such is not impossible. But predicting in detail what will
happen when these details are interwoven with a living
element that is to work out of itself is possible only when we
consider the phenomena that Lucifer and Ahriman carry over from
the present into the future.
We
are gradually getting closer to the big problem occupying us in
these lectures on freedom and necessity. However, as this
particular problem affects so profoundly the whole matter
of world processes and human action, we must not fail to
look at all the difficulties. For instance, we must
realize clearly that when we look back at events that have
happened and in which we have been involved, we look at them as
necessity. The moment we know all the circumstances, we
consider the events as necessity. There is no doubt about the
fact that we look upon what has happened as a necessity.
But
at the same time we have to ask, “Can we really, as so
often happens, always find the causes of events in what
immediately preceded them?” In a certain way natural
science has to look at what has just happened to see what will
happen next. If I carry out an experiment, I have to
realize that the cause of what takes place later obviously lies
in what took place previously. But that does not mean at all
that this principle applies to every process in the world. For
we might very easily deceive ourselves about the connection
between cause and effect if we were to look for it along the
lines of what comes first and what comes later. I would like to
explain this with a comparison.
When we penetrate external reality with our senses, we can say,
“Because this thing is like this, then the other must be
like that.” But if we apply this to every process, we
very often arrive at the error I want to illustrate. For
the sake of simplicity let us take a man driving himself in a
cart, an example I have often taken. We see a horse with a cart
behind it and a man sitting in it holding the reins. We look at
it and quite naturally say that the horse is pulling and the
man is being pulled. The man is being taken wherever the horse
takes him. That is quite obvious. Therefore the horse is the
cause of the man's being pulled along. The pulling being done
by the horse is the cause, and the fact of the man being pulled
is the effect. Fair enough! But you all know very well that
that is not so; that the man sitting up there driving himself
is leading the horse where he wants him to go. Although the
horse is pulling him, it is taking him where he wants to
go.
Such mistakes happen often when we judge purely externally, on
the basis of happenings on the physical plane. Let us look once
more at the hypothetical examples I gave you a few days
ago, in which a party of people set out for a drive, got into
the coach, but the driver was delayed, and they were five
minutes behind time. Therefore they arrive beneath an
overhanging boulder at the moment it falls, and it crushes them
all. Now if we trace the cause on the physical plane, we can
naturally say, “This happened first and then that and
then the other.” And we will arrive at something. But in
this case we could easily make the same mistake we make if we
say the horse pulls the driver wherever it wants and overlook
the fact that the driver is leading the horse. Perhaps we make
this mistake because the controlling force in this case is
possibly to be found in the spiritual world. If we merely trace
events on the physical plane we really judge in the sense of
saying the man is going where the horse takes him. However, if
we penetrate to the hidden forces at work in the
occurrence, we see that events were directed toward that
point and that the driver's belated arrival was actually part
of the whole complex of circumstances. It was all necessary,
but not necessary in the way one might believe if one
merely traces events on the physical plane.
Again, if you believe you can find the cause by assuming
it to be what has happened immediately beforehand, the
following might happen. Seen externally it looks like this. Two
people meet. We now proceed in the proper scientific manner.
The two have met, so we enquire where they were during the hour
before they met, where they were an hour before that, and how
they set out to meet one another. We can now trace over a
certain length of time how one thing has always led to another,
and how the two were brought together. Someone else who does
not concern himself with this sort of thing hears by chance
that the two people had arranged five days beforehand that they
would meet, and he says, “They have met because they
planned to do so.”
Here you have an opportunity to see that the cause for
something is not necessarily connected with the
immediately preceding event. In fact if we break off
looking for the chain of causes before we come to the
right link in the chain, we shall never find it, for after all
we can only follow the chain of causes up to a certain point.
In nature, too, we can only follow it up to a certain point,
particularly in the case of phenomena involving human beings.
And if we do this, and go from one event to the other, tracing
what was before that and before that again, and imagine we will
find the cause this way, we are obviously laying ourselves open
to error, to deception.
You
have to grasp this with what you have acquired from spiritual
science. Suppose a person carries out some action on the
physical plane. We see him doing it. If we want to limit our
observations to the physical plane, we will look into his
behavior prior to the action. If we go further, we will look
into how he was brought up. We might also follow the modern
fashion of looking at his heredity, and so on. However, let us
assume that into this action on the physical plane something
has entered that is only to be found in the life of that person
between his previous death and rebirth. This means that we must
break off the chain of causes at his birth and pass over to
something that resembles the prior arrangement made by the two
people in my example. For what I have just described may have
been predetermined hundreds of years before in the life
between the last death and the birth into the present life.
What was experienced then enters into our present actions and
resolves.
Thus it is inevitable that unless we include the sphere of the
spirit, we cannot find the causes of human actions at all,
certainly not here on the physical plane, and that a search for
causes similar to the way people look for causes of events in
outer nature may go very wrong.
Yet
if we look more closely at the way human action is interwoven
with world processes, we will arrive at a satisfactory way of
looking at things, even of looking at what we call freedom,
although we have to admit that necessity exists also. But what
we call the search for causes is perhaps for the time being
limited most of all by the fact that on the physical plane one
cannot penetrate to the place where causes originate.
Now
we come to something else that has to be considered. The
two concepts freedom and necessity are extremely
difficult to grasp and even more difficult to reconcile.
It is not for nothing that philosophy for the most part fails
when it comes to the problem of freedom and necessity. This is
largely due to the fact that human beings have not looked
fairly and squarely at the difficulties these problems
entail. That is why I am trying so hard to focus in these
lectures on all the possible difficulties.
When we look at human activities, the first thing we see
everywhere is the thread of necessity. For it would be biased
to say that every human action is a product of freedom. Let me
give you another hypothetical example. Imagine someone
growing up. Through the way he is growing up, it can be shown
that all the circumstances have gone in the direction of
making him a postman, a country postman, who has to go
out into the country every morning with the mail and deliver
letters. He does the same round every day. I expect you will
all agree that a certain necessity can be found in this whole
process. If we look at all that happened to this lad in his
childhood and take into account everything that had its effect
on his life, we will certainly see that all these things
combined to make him a mailman. So that as soon as there was a
vacant position he was pushed into it of necessity, at which
point freedom certainly ceased to exist, for of course he
cannot alter the addresses of the letters he gets. There is now
an external necessity that dictates the doors at which he has
to call. So we certainly see a great deal of necessity in what
he has to do.
But
now let us imagine another person, younger perhaps. I
will assume him to be younger so that I can describe what I
want to describe without your objecting too strongly to the way
he behaves. Well then, another, younger person, not out of
idleness but just because he is still so young, makes up his
mind to go with the mailman every morning and accompany him on
his round. He gets up in good time every morning, joins the
postman and takes part in all the details of the round for a
considerable while.
Now
it is obvious that we cannot talk of necessity in the case of
the second fellow in the same sense as we can of the first. For
everything the first fellow does must happen, whereas nothing
the second fellow does has to be done. He could have stayed at
home any day, and exactly the same things would have happened
from an objective standpoint. This is obvious, isn't it? So we
could say that the first man does everything out of
necessity and the second everything out of freedom. We
can very well say this, and yet in one sense they are both
doing the same thing. We might even imagine the following. A
morning comes when the second fellow does not want to get up.
He could quite well have stayed in bed, but he gets up all the
same because he is now used to doing so. He does with a certain
necessity what he is doing out of freedom. We see freedom and
necessity virtually overlapping.
If
we study the way our second self lives in us — the one I
told you about in the public lecture,
[
See lectures of December 3 and December 10, 1915,
in Berlin in
Aus dem mitteleuropäischen Geistesleben
(Of Central European Cultural and Spiritual Life),
GA/Bn 65. Not yet translated.
]
our actual soul nature,
which will pass through the gate of death — it could,
after all, be compared with someone accompanying the
outer human being in the physical world. An ordinary
materialistic monist would think this was a dreadful thing to
say. But we know that a materialistic monist takes the view
that people are terrible dualists if they believe water
consists of hydrogen and oxygen. For them everything must be
undifferentiated. They think it is nonsense to say that the
monon “water” consists of hydrogen and
oxygen. But we must not let monism deceive us.
The
crux of the matter is that what we are in life really consists
of two parts that come together from two different
directions, and these two parts can indeed be compared
with the oxygen and hydrogen in water. For our external
physical nature comes through the line of heredity,
bringing not only physical characteristics with it but also
social status. It is not just our particular form with its
nose, color of hair, and so on that we get from our father and
mother, but our social position is also predestined through our
ancestors' positions in life. Thus not only the appearance of
our physical body, the strength of our muscles and so on, but
our position in society and everything pertaining to the
physical plane comes through the line of heredity from one
generation to the other.
Our
individual being originating in the spiritual world comes from
a different direction, and at first it has nothing to do with
all the forces in the stream of heredity through the
generations, but brings with it causes that may have been laid
down in us centuries before, and unites them on a spiritual
level with the causes residing in the stream of heredity. Two
beings come together. And in fact we can only judge the matter
rightly if we regard this second being coming from the
spiritual world and uniting with the physical being as a kind
of companion to the first one. That is why I chose the example
of the companion who joins us in everything. Our soul
being in a certain sense joins us in the external events in a
similar way.
The
other person accompanying the postman did it all voluntarily.
This cannot be denied. We could certainly look for
causes, but compared with the necessity that binds the first
postman the causes for the second man's actions lie in the
realm of freedom. He did it all voluntarily. But look closely
and you will see that one thing follows with necessity from
this freedom. You will not deny that if the second person had
accompanied the first person long enough, he would
doubtlessly have become a good mailman. He would have easily
been able to do what the man he accompanied did. He would even
have been able to do it better, because he would avoid certain
mistakes. But if the first fellow had not made these mistakes,
the second man would not have become aware of them. We cannot
possibly imagine that it would be of any use if the
second fellow were to think about the first one's mistakes. If
we think in a living way, we will consider this to be an
utterly futile occupation. By specifically not thinking
about the mistakes but joining in the work in a living
way and just observing the proceedings as a whole, he will
acquire them through life and will as a matter of course not
make these mistakes.
This is just how it is with the being that accompanies us
within. If this being can rise to the perception that what we
have done is necessary, that we have accompanied it and
will furthermore take our soul nature into the future in so far
as it has learnt something, then we are looking at things the
right way. But it must have learnt those things in a really
living way. Even within this one incarnation, we can really
confirm this. We can compare three people. The first person
plunges straight into action. At a certain point in his life,
he feels the urge to acquire self-knowledge. So he looks at the
things he has always done well. He revels in what he has done
well, and thus he decides to go on doing what he has always
done well. In a certain sense, he is bound to do well, isn't
he?
A
second person is inclined to be more of a hypochondriac,
and he looks more at his failings. If he can get over his
hypochondria and his failings at all, he will get to the point
of avoiding them. But he will not attain what a third could
attain who says to himself, “What has happened was
necessary, but at the same time, it is a basis for learning,
learning through observation, not useless criticism.” He
will set to work in a living way, not perpetuating what has
already happened and simply carrying the past into the future,
but will strengthen and steel the companion part of himself and
carry it livingly into the future. He will not merely
repeat what he did well and avoid what he did badly, but
by taking both the good and the bad into himself and simply
letting it rest there, he will be strengthening and steeling
it.
This is the very best way of fortifying the soul: to leave
alone what has happened and carry it over livingly into
the future. Otherwise we keep going back in a
luciferic-ahrimanic way over past happenings. We can progress
in our development only if we handle necessity properly.
Why? Is there a right way of handling things in this area? In
conclusion, I want to give you something like an illustration
of this too, about which I want you to think a little between
now and next Tuesday. Then, taking this illustration as
our starting point, we shall be able to get a little further
with our problem.
Suppose you want to see an external object. You can see it,
though you cannot possibly do so if you place a mirror between
the object and yourself. In that case you see your own eyes. If
you want to see the object, you must renounce seeing your own
eyes, and if you want to see your own eyes, you must renounce
the sight of the object. Now, by a remarkable interworking of
beings in the world, it is true with regard to human
action and human knowledge that all our knowledge comes to us
in a certain sense by way of a mirror. Knowing always means
that we actually know in a certain sense by way of
reflection.
So
if we wish to look at our past actions, we actually always look
at them by putting what is in fact a mirror between the actions
and ourselves. But when we want to act, if we want to have a
direct connection between ourselves and our action, between
ourselves and the world, we must not put up the mirror. We must
look away from what mirrors ourselves. This is how it is with
regard to our past actions. The moment we look at them, we
place a mirror in front of them, and then we can certainly have
knowledge of them. We can leave the mirror there and know them
in every terrible detail. There will certainly be cases where
this will be a very good thing. But if we are not capable of
taking the mirror away again, then none of our knowledge
will be any good to us. The moment we take the mirror away we
no longer see ourselves and our past actions, but it is only
then that they can enter into us and become one with us.
This is how we should proceed with self-observation. We must
realize that as long as we look back, this review can
only be the inducement for us to take what we have seen into us
livingly. But we must not keep on looking at it, otherwise the
mirror will always be there. Self-observation is very similar
to looking at ourselves in a mirror. We can make progress
in life only if we take what we learn through self-observation
into our will as well.
Please take this illustration to heart, the illustration of
seeing one's own eyes only if one renounces seeing something
else, and of the fact that if one wants to see something else,
one must renounce seeing one's own eyes. Take this illustration
to heart. Then, taking this illustration as a basis, let us
talk next Tuesday about right and wrong self-observation, and
get nearer and nearer to the solution of our problems. In this
most difficult of human problems, the problem of freedom and
necessity and the interrelationship of human action and world
events, it is certainly necessary that we face all the
difficulties. And those who believe they can solve this problem
before they have dealt with all the difficulties in fact
are mistaken.
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